Bully Me

Chapter Sixteen

Axton Walker

A fucking week has gone by. A week ago, I heard the scariest noise I thought possible. My mate is screaming in pain. Then, my uncle and I get there, and Oakley is pushed against a tree, with Ford's canines in his neck.

The thing I don't get is there was no extreme pleasure. It was like all he felt was pain. We're not even mated and i felt a ghosting of his pain. Well in the last week we learned a lot.

I guess, when you mark someone without their permission there is no pleasure. For either party. Ford's gums started bleeding, and after Oakley passed out Ford started screaming in pain. Then he passed out. And neither has been awake sense.

Then there's the fact that they aren't mates. They weren't compatible, so it didn't work for either. But there are stories of wolves who aren't mates marking each other. So far it was nothing like this.

I'm laying in Oakley's hospital bed, with him against my body. They don't recommend us separating right now, so I've been here since he was admitted. I run my hands up and down his back, as i let my mind spiral.

Why the fuck would he mark him against his will? Why would he want to hurt him like that?

I run my fingers through his pretty hair, brushing it away from his face. Quinn and Poppy come in, holding some food and flowers. "Still nothing?" They left this morning to go to their house to shower and get some clothes.

"No" I shake my head, and hold his warm body closer to mine.

"Go run home and shower, we will stay with him" I slowly nod, after hesitating. I've left twice to shower, not leaving longer than an hour. I slipped from behind his body, and I readjust him before saying my byes.

I make my way past Ford's room, seeing him still passed out with his parents in the room. Anger pulls at my chest, but I keep going. Keep walking. I head to the pack house, and to our suite to take a quick shower.

When I'm in there, I let the hot water run over my body. My forehead leans against the shower tile, as the water runs down. I don't know what the fuck to do. I don't know what's happening with everything.

We don't know why he wont wake up, we don't know why Ford is out. The mark on Oakley's neck is still bright red and tender too. Like it won't heal. It should've healed by now.

I finish up my shower, and get dressed. Then there's a knock on my door, and Reed is pushing in.

"Hey" he crosses his arms, leaning against the doorframe. "Mom wanted to know how Oakley is?"

"He's the same he's been" I grab a couple sweats, shoving them into my bag. "Won't wake up. But neither has Ford "I shove a hoodie into my bag, zipping it shut.

"Surprised you didn't kill him honestly. You have anger issues"

"I don't have anger issues. And I don't just kill people "I slide my bag over my shoulder.

"Yeah, okay. Felix and I were gonna stop by today. Didn't know if it would be to much though"

"Wouldn't be for me. Would be nice to have company sense. I just lay there with an unconscious mate. "I make my way to the door, and Reed stops me.

"I know I haven't been very... supportive. I'm always gone and I know it's putting a- a strain on us. But I want to be better. I want us to be close" he hand is gripping my forearm.

"You're the little brother. I should do better. I should've done better. Protecting us. But I'm not gonna let you judge my relationship, either. Oakley doesn't need that. I gave him too much of it for one lifetime. I refuse to let anyone else hurt him like I did. Just because dad drilled homophobic shit into our head doesn't mean that's what we need to believe. What we need to think"

"How do you just let it all.. Go?" he releases me, crossing his arms again.

"I don't know honestly. I haven't just let it go. His voice is still in my head. But my mate is a man, and I love that man. I have for years. I just am not gonna let it ruin what I have with him. What I could have. What i want"

"How did you know you.. Loved him?"

"I have for so long, Reed. I don't know. I don't even know it's normal."

"Why do you think it's not normal?"

"He's all I think about. All I want. Even before i knew we were mates"

"You just ever feel like without him you wouldn't be complete? Like if he wasn't here you'd be missing your other half?" Reed asks, his eyes avoiding mine.

"You're asking about Felix" the realization hits me. Hard. "You think you love him?" I step back, bending slightly to meet our eyes.

"I don't know" he snaps, his back stiffening. "It's just things have been shifting and i- i think he wants more from me. From our relationship. I think i want more"

"Like..? Fucking or like, dates and shit?" My brows crease.

"Jesus Ax.. I don't know. Felix is a very touchy guy and I just. When he touches me, when he needs me. It does something to me. It makes me feel so good. And when we fight, or when I can't stay with him.. Everything sucks" he runs his fingers through his hair. "I don't know how he feels, but I think he feels the same. But what's the point in any of it if we aren't even mates?"

"I think that's a lot to think about. Maybe you're not mates, but maybe it shows that you're into dudes too. Have you ever thought about it before?"

"No. Never looked at guys like that. Never looked at anyone, really" He clears his throat. "I've never been attracted to anyone before" he admits, his eyes skating across my room. "Then I caught myself checking Felix out. A bunch of times. And I realized, maybe I did think someone was attractive."

"You're attracted to Felix" I add, and he nods.

"It's not wrong to experiment before you have a mate. It's pretty common. But if you don't want to, that's common too. But being gay? Bi? Pan? Whatever you are, you should be comfortable being yourself. You deserve to love who you love. Just as much as the next person. Dad is a piece of shit, what he thinks doesn't matter. What matters is what you think. And you do what's best for you"

"Thanks" He whispers, and then he's hugging me. It comes and goes quickly, but it means a lot. And not just to him.

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Reed and Felix did come by for a bit, which was nice talking to them both. Then we got news Ford is waking up. He was anyway. Nothing new on Oakley though, he's just laying in my lap.

But then his whole body twitches, and jerks. I wrap my arms around him, and when his whole body starts shaking, and foam starts pouring from his lips I turn him to his side. "Get the doctor!" I yell, and Felix takes off to get someone.

Reed is by my side, helping me hold Oakley on his side so he doesn't choke on the foam, but then he starts vomiting, everywhere.

"What's happening?" the doctor yells, coming in and instantly checking on Oakley. He throws up so much, and everywhere. He's soaked in it, and the whole time he pukes he's shaking violently.

After a few minutes, the vomiting stops, and his shaking follows. "Heart rate is normal" Doctor yells for help, and they are pumping him full of medicines and fluids. Everything happens so quickly.

Then those stormy eyes open, and he blinks a couple times. "Axton?" His voice is hoarse, and his whole body is covered in vomit. So am i. But relief floods me, and my eyes flick between his.

"Hi baby" my voice comes out quiet, and he relaxes into my body.

"What's happening?" his brows crease, and he notices his puke."Oh my goddess I'm so sorry-"

"Shh baby" I ran my fingers through his hair, holding him close. "We will get you cleaned up soon. Just let them check on you"

And they do. The doctor takes blood, and keeps him connected to a bunch of machines.

He's awake.

My mates awake. 

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Oh wow. Seeing Axton be there so much for Oakley warms my heart. 

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