Love At Your Own Risk

8. Invalidating her Feelings

Risa's POV

Lumarga na nga si Loren. Ako nalang naiwan mag-isa sa kwarto. My body can't moved. Feels like I don't even want to move an inch sa pagkakahiga ko. I felt empty. Blank.

All I know is that I'm questioning myself for what just happened earlier. How the hell I dreamt of Alicia? Tsaka seryoso?! We kissed?!! AND DID I JUST EVEN IMAGINED OF REMOVING HER FUCKING SHIRT???!!!!

WHAT ARE WE EVEN DOING DOON SA PALAYAN?!! Like, andami naman pwedeng lugar na pwedeng pag-gawan, like sa CR, sa kusina, sa bahay or sa kwarto, or pwede din sa car or hotel ! ( uuuyy, gusto nyo ba 'yon? mwehihihii)

Pero bakit sa dinami-dami naman ng pwedeng pag-gawan ng kababalaghan, sa palayan pa?! Ang cheap ha..

I checked my phone and it turns out it's 7:39am already. I'm still not moving at all. Pumikit nalang ako ulit hoping na makabalik sa tulog.

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Fuck, why is it so hard to sleep?!! Kapag pipikit ako, sunod-sunod na nagpapakita yung mukha ni Alicia. Kapag nakadilat naman, wala na akong ibang inisip kundi sya. What the fuck? Alicia, what have you done? T~T

Alright, since I can't go back to sleep, I just decided to stand up and go to the bathroom to take a shower. Siguro naman baka mahimasmasan na ako.

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She prepared her things and pumasok na nga ng banyo si Risa and locked the door. She turned the heater on and tinanggal na ang mga damit na suot nya. She then took a shower while listening to music.

Parang wala pa sa mood si Risa maligo pero binuksan nya na yung shower at naligo. Kinuha nya yung shampoo at ng ilalagay nya na ito sa kamay ay sumagi nanaman sa utak nya si Alice. Pumikit sya agad para mabura sa isip nya yung mukha ni Alice.

Matapos magshampoo at magsabon ay walang ibang ginawa si Risa kundi ang tumayo sa shower at magbabad ng napakatagal habang iniisip ang mga bagay-bagay.

After an hour taking a bath, she fixed herself at nagdamit ng pambahay kasi nga wala naman syang planong tumuloy na sa second day.

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Alright, I think it's time for me to take care of the letters for the students. Sa bahay ko nalang ilipat sa computer para masend kay Principal yung docu so that sila na magpi-print. *sigh* okay.

I prepared my notebook and pen again. I went downstairs with it to get some food and ofcourse, coffee to start my day. Just about an hour later, I didn't noticed that I already finished writing the excuse letter without any disruption.

" Hay, sa wakas natapos ko din. Hmmm, antahimik. Anong oras na ba? Oh it's 10:00am. Ang boring naman. Punta nalang kaya ako? Pero baka ma-awkward lang ako kapag nakita ko si Alicia don. Bshdkdnhkdl kinikilabutan pa din ako. Why would I do that with someone na 11 years of age behind me?"

Risa took her at least 15 minutes just to decide wether she'll come to the field or not. And guess what?
She went back upstairs on their room and prepared her things.

"You know what? Just fuck it. Pupunta nalang ako kaysa naman mamatay akong buryong-buryo dito. Hmmm.. What should I wear? "