💙Waiting for us 💙 ~seungbin ~

🖤Truth or dare?🖤

~~Seungmin pov~~~

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After everyone arrived we sat down on the manny pillows and bean bags that are placed in a circle I sit across from changbin the amd I'm in between minsung and Jeonchan and he's next to hyunlix changbins room is really big so it kind of works for the game he pit his LED lights to a party like vide and puts chase Atlantic on as background noise because why not and sits not 

" ok let's get started I know this is going to be cheesy but it's fun so get over it t or d don't do the the selection that is given to you take a shot simple ok ok let's start " changbin says and closes his eyes and points to Chan hyung and says he's he chooses who's first " hmm Lix t or d ? " he thinks and smiles like the sun " dare " he smirks " take a shot don't swallow and kiss hyunjin" he laughs at the reaction and dose as told and kisses hyunjin you can se him gulp the liquid down and they make out before pulling away and calls on Han " truth " he thinks " in the 5 years you've guys been together has he managed to steal your vCard ? " Han gets all red and hides his face " yes " everyone laughs and cheers for Minho " you guys are pigs " minho says and Han calls on jeongin and he chooses dare " whisper something dirty to Chan " his mouth drops and gets up and whispers something and Chan gets all flustered and turns red 

~~~After a couple of games ~~~

Everyone is some form of drunk mostly buzzed but I'm drunk as hell since I can't handle my liquor losing every sense I have " seungmin truth or dare " says Chan smirking " dare " knowing I'm going to regret this sets in but I can't think about that I'm trying to fight the drunkness " hmm let's see I dare to umm drink 3 shots and do a spicy dance to under the influence and give someone a lap dance " he smirks and I try to process what he says of course my drunk ass agreed and start drowning 3 shots as the lights are a dark blue as the music starts I've never been much of a dancer but I do have skills enough to drag this out I start swaying my hips so lost in the drunk mess of a self as the music picks up and I get on the floor and crawl over to changbin and sit on his lap and grave to shot glasses and drink mine and I give him his as he drinks it and move my hips to the music as the chores picks up and give him a lap dance in that moment I can tell by the way are eyes locked that he was enjoying it as the music stops it changed to swim by chase Atlantic and we keep eye contact and I'm moving my hips still so lost in the moment we didn't even notice then we lose eye contact as he graves me hips and stops me 

https://youtube.com/shorts/4YAHnzN6Avk?feature=shared)< this is a video of what I kind of had in mind of the dance he did before the lap dance it's not crazy accurate but it's what I wanted the dance to kind of be just hold it down and copy it and put in YouTube that should bring the video up :) > 

I whine a little as he picks me up " you guys continue I'm going to take him to get some water in his body and lay him down for sleep " Changbin says and carry's me to the kitchen placing me on the counter and gets water for me " bin bin ?" He hums letting me know he's listening " are you mad at me " I say my voice cracks and I start sobbing and Barry my face in my hands " what know why would I be your drunk your just not thinking straight " I sob harder " that's the thing I'm not thinking straight but my feelings are I did what I did because I'm in love with you " I say I'm trying to think straight but my words just fall out like a water fall 

" what are you saying please just don't I can't do this I can't please Minnie if you love me please just don't do this!" He tells but I can't stop now that I've started no matter how much my heart fights it my brain continues to win

" I'm in love with you and it hurts it fucking hurts siting here seeing everyone get there happy endings being stupid in love and I can't even get my first kiss because I've been so head over fucking heels for you and I can't do it anymore can't you see I can't physically  do it anymore I'm tired of pretending like we don't have something here but that's my problem I can't bring myself to be with you because it can ruin so much and I can't lose you I can live without changbin I can't and that's what hurts I'm so pathetic I can't even let myself love I'm useless and I know it and I get why you won't ask me out and even share the same feelings because deep down you know I'm right that you deserve someone who's not as pathetic as me " I yell at him crying my heart out I was no long on the counter I was on the flood crying my heart out and he just looks at me dumbfounded he doesn't know what to do and I get that I wouldn't wanna be around me either if was like this I get up and grave the vodka told behind  him and drown my feelings in it I was already drunk but it just helped me forget anything and made me calm down but as soon as it was in my hands the sooner it was gone it was taken from me by changbin as he breaks down crying he's as drunk as I am but seems so put together he's always been that way no matter what state he's in he's so put together 

That's when it happened I was pined to the wall by a crying changbin " why just why why do you have to affect me so bad to the point where I can't stand seeing you like this I can't stand it seungmin you hear me I can't I can't handle hearing you talk like this I can't that's why I didn't ask you out why I didn't let you get to close because I was scared it would destroy us and I can't do that to you to me to us I can't I love you to much so I put your happiness before mine you hear that " he says and pulls me a little and pushed my back in the wall making me hit if hard but I ignore it and just stared in his eyes " kiss me " I say out of no where shocking not only him but myself 

                                                                               "I can't "