~~~~~Seungmin pov~~~~~
"I can't "
That rang in my head for a good minute my body felt like it went numb so numb I forgot I had my hands pinned to the wall right above my head my whole body wasn't there he just stood there staring into my eyes like he didn't just shatter my heart I felt like dying I was drunk and I still felt everything that was being sayed my heart hurt so fucking bad I thought being drunk would eliminate pain not increase it
It took a minute but I finally built up the courage to speak " w-why" my voice cracked I couldn't hold in my feelings anymore I was so lost in the moment I didn't even notice everyone was staring at us I'm guessing changbin did because he let me go and started walking away
In the moment something came over me and I graved his wrist " p-please c-changbin please just tell me w-why you can't you " I say trying my best no to cry more then I already was he stared at me like he didn't know what to do I didn't expect him to look so angry " c-changbin" he keeps walking dragging me along as I try to stop him " Changbin please " he stops and stares at me like he was pissed " BECAUSE I CANT DONT YOU GET IT I CANT BC IF I DO I WONT BE ABLE TO FUCKING STOP JUST PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS!!" he yells
" we need to take a break I think we should stay away from each other for awhile I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore " I stare at him in disbelief and get angry " are you kidding me right now your just going to walk away because you can't stand to let yourself love someone well I had enough of this go fuck yourself I can't do this either !! " I take are matching rings off and anything that we share as part of are friendship and throw it at him and he puts it in his pocket " this is why I didn't wanna start things with you.." he yanked his arm away from me and runs into the bathroom
I didn't even realize I was on the floor until I saw jeongin lay me head down on his lap I just cry my heart out because that's all I can do
And before I knew it was the morning I woke up in my room with a big ass headache I turn around and see Chan and jeongin on the floor asleep I guess they stayed with me I was still dressed i get up and go to the bathroom and take a pain killer I clean my face it's still puffy and my eyes are still red I could see the dry tears I guess no matter how much I drank i could still remember everything from the yelling to the crying I was having panic attacks after panic attacks all night long can and jeongin stayed with me to keep me from doing something stupid I finally was able to sleep at 4 this morning but it wasn't good I keep dreaming of everything that happened and I hate myself so much for doing the one thing I told myself to never do ruin us ....
" I'm sorry I love you " i say and slide down to the floor and cry again "just cry it will all be over soon he loves you he just needs time to figure it out " jeongin says I didn't even see him come in he holds me as I cry this time I'm sober
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Sorry it's short but I wanna be able to do a changbin side since it's kind of a lot also I forgot if I said anything about friendship bracelets or anything but I'm going to keep it a Bracelet and ring as the friendship charms also let's just say sorry I love you is a hint :)))))))) <<<<<<
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💙Waiting for us 💙 ~seungbin ~
TeenfikceWhat happens when 2 childhood Bestfriends find out the true feelings behind there friendship.will they expect there feelings or will it remain a secret? Not proof read :) don't feel like it :))))))))
