💙Waiting for us 💙 ~seungbin ~

🩶Scared 🩶

It's been another week we had practice last week and it was so hard not to talk to changbin like impossible considering we sing 2 songs together and we need to talk when I need help with something like if I walk to change a part of the guitar sound nobody told me taking a break would be this hard it is Friday once again I'm in my room hiding under my blankets and binge watching old romcon movies to heal my broken heart 

" WHY MUST THE UNIVERSE PUNISH ME!!" I scream when to childhood best friends kiss for the first time my heart longs for that and all of a sudden I hear rocks hitting my window so I pull hood of the jacket I'm wearing yes it did belong to changbin don't judge be over my head and head to the window and open it and there standing outside in the cold is changbin I look at him and he looks up at me " what do you want I thought we were on a 'break '" I say as he frowned and looks down " can I come in I want to talk please?" He says he look like he's been crying " whatever you know where the door is and you have a key " I say and close the window and put some pants on since I wasn't wearing any and climb back in the bed and push play on my movie and eat my gummy bears 

And as I do changbin walks in I look at him and close my computer " take a pic it will last longer " I say he scoffs and sits next to me after closing the door 

"Your pathetic you know it's a Friday night and instead of going to a party or doing something more fun your sitting in your bed eating gummy bears and watching old roncoms rotting away because of what a guy " I look at him and without think I slap him real hard so hard I can feel it  

He grabs his cheek " I deserve that " I scoffed " dame right you deserved it you come here after 2 whole weeks and call me pathetic!"I sit on my knees and face him " I might be pathetic but at least I'm not as pathetic as you at least I can admit I'm in love you can't even do that you shut ME out not the other way around!!" I start tearing up " I don't know what got into you but the changbin I know and love would never had hurt me as bad as you did these last 2 weeks have been torturing me I can't even talk to my best friend because he wants a break from me " I start crying " a break from me that hurt that hurt more then anything else I could cut every part of my body and that still hurts more then any cuts!! " a Barry my face in my hands and look at him again " so please don't sit here at act like nothing happened like everything is fine because something is happening here and I'm tired of pretending like nothing i-" 

I was cut off by to lips being pushed against mine they were so soft I melted into the kiss and let him led the kiss was sweet and felt like heaven the kiss I waited for forever finally happened as we pulled away he looks at me " I'm sorry you have no idea how much I hated myself for this I was so drunk and I didn't want it to happen like that then we started fighting and I freaking out and I said things I didn't even mean I'm so so sorry I love you so much and I can't handle seeing you like this " he said gluing are heads together 

I'm crying more now " c-changbin " I say choking back tears " shh it's ok why are you cry?" He says his voice is so soothing " c-changbin I'm so confused so god dame confused " I choke back even more tears " I'm not just confused I'm also scared I'm scared this will be a mistake and we'll mess things up " he pulls me into a hug and kisses my head " I promise I won't let that happen ok " he hugs me tightly 

"Let's watch the movie you were watching and then rest we have band practice in the morning " I nod and put the movie bad on I drift off to sleep a little while later I was laying on his chest even tho we're not dating I know he means it he won't let anything happen to us 

      Right ?