Pain and Love

On My Own Now

Tessa:
2 weeks later,

I had been living in Molly's flat for a couple weeks and it has been good living with her. It isn't the same not being in my own apartment but it was a nice comfortable space. I was still able to get to uni without bumping into Hardin and I changed my schedule around at work so I didn't have any awkward encounters there too. It's been a struggle trying to get over what has happened and how to deal with my feelings. I still love Hardin so much and I know how hard it is going to be to get over these feelings and how long it will take me. I have been holding myself back from having any contact with him. He tried to talk to me at uni but I quickly walked past him and when he tried to speak to me at the office he got blocked off by Kim. However, that hasn't stopped him from texting me.

'Tessa I'm so sorry please forgive me'

'I know not to bother you in person but please text me to know you are okay'

And multiple others texts which have all been left on read and will stay that way even though it pains me a lot. I would always be desperate to text him when we were apart but now I'm desperate for him to stop so I don't have to deal with him.

Anyway, it's a normal work day for me so I was off to my office. I got into the building and was  heading towards my office but Kim stopped me on my way in. "Tessa, me and Christian were just wanting a word with me" she tells me and I nod following her to his office. When we go into the office Christian stands behind his desk and welcomes me in.

"So Tessa, I have a job opportunity for you. I know you are wanting out of the town and you deserve a fresh start after what Hardin has put you through in the last few weeks" He gives me a comforting smile. He knows what it is like dealing with Hardin in this state as he dealt with it and he managed to escape all the drama that surrounds Hardin. "What is the opportunity?" I curiously ask. "Well I'm opening a new branch in Seattle, there is a job that will be fitting for you. I want you to have the same job that Hardin has but in the new office. You have impressed me with all the work you've done here so I want to offer you the job first" he tells me about the new office.

"It sounds great, I'd love to take on that position. But I will need to sort out all my stuff, find myself a place and sort out how I will continue on at uni" I tell them. "That is understandable however we may be able to help with the housing issue. We own an apartment in Seattle that we'd like to offer you. Obviously it won't be free but we can sort that out later. I'm also sure that Ken will be able to sort something out for you when it comes to your university work" Christian gives me a smile to say 'don't worry we've got your back'. "Only if you guys are sure. You have done so much for me already I don't want you to think I'm taking advantage of you both" I tell them.

"Tessa you aren't, you are one of the closest friends I have and we want to help you out as much as possible" Kim says to me and wraps her arm around my shoulder. "Okay I will, I will go to Seattle and take the job. I am so so thankful to you both" I say with a big smile on my face and Kim brings me in for a hug. Then Christian comes around and gives me a handshake as we laugh whilst shaking his hand.

...

2 months later,

Well I settled in very well in Seattle. I have got all my stuff out of the storage container and moved into the apartment. I've set in well in my new job too. I also have transfer to online uni thanks to Ken. The apartment is a perfect two bedroom apartment. Its homely and comforting, the Vance's let me decorate it however I like as well. I've not got around to decorating yet as I like how it is but I will just add my own little details here and there. In the spare room I set up my at home uni/work office. I have a desk and chair with all my shelving and bookcases in the room full of my own books, uni paper work and manuscripts too. The Vance's and Molly helped me with all my moving about. Molly came and stayed for the weekend when I first moved in to help me sort stuff out and keep my company.