Pain and Love

Angry And Hurt

Hardin:

I left Tessa's office and stormed out the building and into my car. I was so angry and hurt I just needed to get away from the office and Tessa. I sat in the car for a few seconds just sitting thinking to myself, how had our day ended up like this.

The meetings had gone well, I didn't get too bored for once and everything went smoothly. I was so happy to get out of the meeting room and make my way to Tessa's office but when I got there she wasn't. I just thought she would get a coffee or something so I just sat in her seat and decided to wait. After more than five minutes she didn't show up so I called her a couple of times but no answer. I got a bit worried because Tessa normally answers her phone and when she is here she is normally in her office.

I had just stood up from her chair to leave when I heard her door office so I sat back down but just after I sat down I heard her speaking to someone. Sadly that being Trevor. I heard the two of them talking and I could slightly see them though the gap in the door but neither of them had seen me. After they said their goodbyes Tessa walked into her room but still hadn't noticed me till she turned around. And I think as soon as I spoke she could tell I was annoyed which she wouldn't be wrong. I was annoyed and just wanted to leave but Tessa had to stop me and as soon as she said what's wrong with me I got angry.

The argument we had went from zero to one hundred after that. I may have been a little overprotective and jealous but I wasn't being controlling or being like Noah. I couldn't believe Tessa would compare me to Noah. After all the shitty things he did to her and she really had to compare me to him. I've been called some horrible things even by my own parents which hurt but having Tessa say I was like Noah, I have no words. I was hurt and angry.

After thinking over what happened I ended up driving for a while but that didn't help so I ended up going back to the apartment.

I sat in the living room just thinking with Tessa's words repeating in my head and that's all that was happening in my head. His name and her words were just making the anger grow more and more. I needed someone to take my mind somewhere else. So I went into the kitchen to find a drink, I got out a glass then tried to find alcohol but I found none.

"Fuck sake!" I yelled and then threw the glass and it smashed everywhere.

After a while the anger was still there but it was turning into hurt. I left the kitchen and went back into the living room and sat down. Tears started to build up in my eyes, I layed back and slowly I fell asleep.

"Hardin go upstairs" mum yells

"Mum, what's going on?" I yell back

"Go upstairs honey" she says but tries to say in a calmier tone

But then this man hits her across the face and then another man keeps me stuck on the spot. Then they start hitting my mum even more and then they start to take her clothes off. That's when I scream.

I wake myself up and I am a sweating mess on the sofa.

Once I'm more awake I pull my phone out of my pocket and see the time. Tessa will be home soon and I seriously can't be around her. Between her words, the argument and the nightmare I just had, the anger and hurt is building up inside of me again. I need something to sidetrack me and asap.

I get off the sofa, grab my car keys, jacket and quickly leave the house.

I get in the car and drive off to the one place I know will have plenty of alcohol. The frat house.