ghost of you | giyuu x shinobu.

4.

• SHINOBU •

It has been a week since what had happened and I don't really remember after I fell asleep and according to my sister, Aoi, she said I have been asleep or fainted for two days due to the cold weather.

"shinobu-san, your blood can be tested out some drug and alcohol in it" Tamayo-sama said, we would always run our blood test so that case we would know the poison inside my body is still activate but surprisingly they can tested out what I had been consumed this past few days.

"oh- I'm sorry" I said and clear my throat, about to start my explanation.

"no, it's alright, you must be stress out a lot but don't take too much of alcohol, it's not good for you" she said and give me a warm innocent smile that ease my mind, "someone drug me on the alcohol but gladly I'm very resistant from drug" I said and she just chuckles.

"for someone to drink poison every day, it's a great thing to show off about it" Tamayo-sama said and put the blood test away as she started to take out a random piece of paper.

I think it must be some new kind of poison that we had to work on, the project of working on a poison is not easy like I said, it's stressful, all of the things I learn are science and gladly I love science but not that much but I'm grateful I have a brilliant head.

I was working seriously in the meantime and trying to do some research about it, it's lunch time and I'm in no mood to eat, I have a small appetite actually so I don't get hungry that easily, I would mostly just eat dinner and one meal is enough for the day, if I happen to let my sisters know, they are going to kill me because of my unhealthiness.

Tamayo-sama sits on the couch comfortably with a yawn escape her mouth, "you should go rest and eat lunch, Tamayo-sama, I'll do some research myself" I told her and she nodded her head quietly, I saw a smile creep on her face as I wonder what is she smiling about.

"I have been thinking about you and tomioka seem to have a lot of missions together, perhaps are you guys a couple?" Tamayo-sama asked out of the blue that got me choked on my breath as she laughed at me.

"n-no, we're just friends" I said and a nervous giggle escaped my mouth, sweats rolling through my skin and my heart is pumping so fast, "is that so?" she sounds hesitant.

"yes, it is"

"that's too bad, you both look good together" she exclaims and my eyes widen in shock when she says that statement but I'm trying to keep myself calm as possible.

"what are you talking about? that's nonsense" I still faked a laugh after that cause I didn't know how to react to her word, if I am Tomioka-san, I know I would just put up a cold face and not answer anything but I'm not rude like him obviously.

"your chemistry with Tomioka just reminds me well of my late husband" she said with a low tone as her voice started to break, I got caught off guard and stopped from what I'm doing immediately.

My mind is filled with sadness and despair marks in my heart, "I know you hate me from the first start because I am a demon yet you chose to work with me because you can tell the difference in the shade of good and bad demon, clearly you see me as a good demon" she explains and I turn to look at her as her purple bright eyes slowly filled with water but she resist it from falling through her light skin.

"in fact, I'm a bad demon and I will never forgive myself till this day" she continues and grips her fist tightly as rages also enter her body.

"I have a family, a husband and kids, a happy family to be exact, I got everything I wanted.." a smile creep on her face but slowly it disappears out of my sight, "until I had an illness and I don't wanna die because I want to spend more time with my family.. that's the part where I am starting to get greedy" she said and I slowly walk over to her then sit beside her.

"I found Muzan, he offered to treat my illness and I naively accepted, even if it meant to become a demon, I just want to watch my children grow old and stay happy with my husband, forever.." she choked on her breath but I tapped on her back lightly to give her comfort which she smiles a bit for me, "what I didn't knew is after becoming a demon, I was left with rampage from the first start, I not only killed a number of innocence lives, I also killed my husband and children" trauma enters her soul and her eyes were filled with guilt, it's eating her alive and it pain her till this day even after hundred of years ago.

"I didn't even realize I killed my family that I love, the one that I swore to live with them forever, the one that I killed with my bare hand, I created everything I wanted and lost them at the same time.." her voiced crack at the end and her watery tears finally rolled through her skin that killed her slowly.

"so I understand why you hate me as I hate myself for what I have done, I will never forgive myself" she said and quickly wiped the tears away from her.

She didn't know the consequences of becoming her demon and became a demon for her family to live a long happy life with her loved one, it's not her fault, she didn't know what was going to happen to her.

"I am so sorry to hear that but it's not your fault, let's work together and beat that crappy Muzan" I said and continually comfort her that eases her a little bit.

"that's why sometimes I see you and Giyuu, it just reminds me of my time with my husband" she exclaims and I just awkwardly laugh afterwards as she got up from her seat then headed to get lunch.

I sit on my seat silently and still nervous about everything but I don't hate Tamayo-sama now that I know her backstory and her intentions of fighting Muzan to get revenge for her family while I wanted revenge for my sister who killed her.

I laid my head on the soft coach and thought about him, do I really look good with him?