ghost of you | giyuu x shinobu.

7.

• GIYUU •

I can't stop thinking about her since last week when she helps me with my wounds or teasing me annoyingly yet flirtatious at the same time, she's driving me crazy.

I try to get rid of her thoughts in my mind and it just won't go away from some reasons, even worse when she keep on appearing in my dreams whenever I start to sleep or just woke up from my dreams because of her then end up couldn't sleep because I was too anxious.

I don't know what the fuck she did to me but the thoughts of her sticks in my head like a glued stick is killing me and I think I developed a weird feelings toward her and I don't know what that feeling is.

My sense keep kicking me and whenever she's in my mind, I get anxious and nervous easily by only the thoughts of her, ever since that day, it caused me more harm, I don't know how to live with this feeling and I want to get rid of the feeling immediately before I do anything stupid like insane.

I lived for so long, I need to get rid of this feeling as soon as possible but it's not that easy to be told, the feeling is similar when my older sister and Sabito is alive, it's merrier and cheerful and I remember it very clearly, all of it including the feeling of the past, not to forget to mention, the feeling of losing them.

The moment I start to get attached, I swear to God I need to leave them, because I know something bad is about to happen to me and I do not want to live to feel that kind of feeling ever again, I had enough losing people, at least distancing myself to protect them is the least I can do, because I know I am just a curse for them.

I should have known from the first start that I am not worthy of being her friends, or being close with her.

The feeling she gives me is more clearly than anyone give me before, it's out of Sabito's league to be honest and I'm quite carried away that a girl like her can make me go crazy, just for her. If I do, I am guilty of having that kind of feeling for Kochou.

I hate my-

My thoughts were cut off, "Giyu-san! Giyu-san!!" Tanjiro yelled at me that irritates me immediately, I narrow my brows and cross my arm, "you look so distracting, I have been calling you for eternity, are you alright?" he asked and looked slightly worried about me but I shrugged it off.

It's not like he would understand me anyways, "I'm fine" I said blandly.

He scrunched his nose and started to sniff at me, I know he's going to tell me that I smell mad, his nose is a different kind of breed, not like a human but more like a dog.

"you smell-" before he could even finish his word, I cut his word off to help him finish, "mad?" I asked.

He shook his head as his little eyes started to glow at me which leads me to confusion now, Tanjiro is smiling at me widely like a stupid kid and a thin blush can be seen on his cheek.

"love" he finished his word.

I almost chock on my breath, sweats are dripping down my hair and my eyes are opening wide filled with sickness as I furrow my brows, concern and panic even start to enter my soul as well.

I swear to God I didn't know how to breathe properly anymore, I laid my back on the bamboo stick and look at the little man who is sweating like crazy from training around with himself, he is still looking at me with his stupid face, I narrow my brows to him and try to walk away.