ghost of you | giyuu x shinobu.

21.

• GIYUU •

The room is getting freezing but my eyes are shutting tight, it's getting harder to breath and I can feel the sweat forming on my head rolling down though my skin.

Nightmare, it's always been nightmare causing me having much panic attack, even sleeping gives me anxiety, the reason why the eyebag under my eyes are heavy as ever.

I heard a voice is calling me, louder than ever, I keep squeaking my eyes and I'm unable to open it for some reasons, it keeps on haunting me, I don't know what is wrong with me, something is pushing me to get up from my bed, it's tiring me.

I can feel my own heartbeat and it's beating rapidly, I'm too anxious to sleep but I can't open my eyes and wake myself up.

It feels heavy inside, I grip onto my blanket with my sweaty palms and there she is again, the image of her face in my mind, horrific me yet fantasize me at the same time.

Tears flowing on my skin, again.

Darkness surrounding me as if I'm drowning inside a pool where no one could save me at all, I'm not begging for my life too, just dying in peace.

I heard a sound, "Tomioka-san!" a sudden guilt trip over my heart and anxiety rush through my veins.

I gritted on my teeth and my eyes immediately opened as I got up from my bed with heavy panting and teary eyes, I furrowed my brows and my heartbeat is still beating faster than ever, sweats are everywhere.

A hand touches my shoulder and I'm shocked by my life, "K-kochou?" I called her in a low tone.

Her lungs are filled with stitches and there's a scar on her body, "are you okay? do you need water, love?" my eyes are tearing up again.

"are you having a nightmare?" she asked me kindly and her hand ruffled my short hair that caught me off guard, "is this really you, Kochou?" I asked her in a low tone, hoping I'm not dreaming this scenario, it feels too real to be true.

She has her eyes confused but a giggle escapes her lips, "you had your nightmare again, don't you?" I couldn't find myself talking but my hand slowly reached her face then slowly caressing her scar.

"does it hurt?" I asked and saw her in this state, pain me.

"it does not, Tomioka-san"

"I thought you died" I told her and the sweats are still visible to her eyes and she can tell I'm really anxious and serious about it.

"oh my, did you forget what had happened?" she asked and led to my confusion, I don't know what is real or fake anymore at this point.

Flashback

Two years ago,

I was getting ready for the Hashira training with Iguro as I was about to slide the wooden door open, a knock came right in front of me at the best timing that caught me off guard.

Kochou just left the house awhile ago, did she leave something behind and come back to get it?

I opened the door, "Kochou-" my lips immediately stopped and I got startled by the figure in front of me, it was Kanao instead.

"Tomioka-san" she called me with her timid voice, her eyes looked like she was pleading with help.

We both sit on the cold ground across each other, Kanao gulps on her saliva as I stare at her cluelessly.