TW: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE
I'm back home and I immediantly go back to my room to bawl my eyes out. Why the fuck did he have to kill him..? And why dod my uncle just- Accept it? He wasn't that old...He knows I have nobody left. Xander could have just...killed her instead..I let these thoughts run while I lay on my bed and hugged my pillow tight. I have nobody now. Nobody to comfort me. The house is empty. Not even empty beer bottles are left. My eyes hurt from all the crying..I just want peace for once in my life.. I can't even go back to school because its a wreck and everyone hates me or are dead. All because I didn't want anything with her. No- Its all because of that demon. Or is it my dads fault? I don't care anymore. I just want to end it all here.
"KILL ME ALREADY! CAN YOU HEAR ME!? I WANT TO DIE NOW!" I scream at the top of my lungs.
Everything hurts. Not only did my eyes hurt before but now its my fucking throat that hurts. Its not fair. My mum had a right to divorce him. He kept running off and acting crazy- Even murdering some people. She just didn't want people accociating me with a murderer. All she wanted was for me to have a good life but now its worse without her. My head wont stop pounding.. All of this is too much- I wish none of this even started in the first place. Maybe if I didn't kill him...No-He would've just killed me instead. And if not then the constant beatings would've caught up to me and I would have ended it quicker myself. I just want a normal life. Is that so much to ask for? If there is a God then I pray to him to make everything get better.. I'll even sacrifice myself if I have to.
POV CHANGE TO XANDER(yea I ain't saying who he is)
I was left to wander around the beach. Everything just kept flooding back. All his smiles and laughs and everything made me feel imense pain- I could have sworn I swung my hand at it and not his uncle.. Maybe it was what he said that made me? But it felt so...weird- I swear it felt like I was being controlled.. I didn't want to kill him- And now I ruined everything. I ruined not only someones life but my relationship with that person. Hell- I just made him have nobody- I should have just rejected the offer that he made- What was the offer anyways? Oh yea. Being alive again- God I hate my past decisions.. I was so stupid at 16... I wonder how hes doing anyway... I just know hes crying- Fuck- I hate hearing his crying.. It could shatter anybodys heart- Why did that bitch do all of this to him anyways!? I swear- Once I figure how to fix everything at LEAST a little. Im going to hunt that fucking succubitch and tear its head clear off its body and wipe that fucking grin with it too.
Maybe I could go back for a bit... At least a bit..
END OF PART 11!
I swear it will get better guys <:)
Also a little message for all of you.
Even if your day is going bad that doesn't mean you should take your life. People care about you and your life means so much to them<3 And if you think nobody cares about you then im here for you guys <3
Have a nice day/night everyone!
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Kassy & The (very) Random Demon
RandomKassy (an insomniac with a somewhat always drunk uncle) can't sleep one day. His uncle is at work so it becomes a bit strange to hear running water of the shower when hes home alone. He walks into the bathroom and sees what seems to be a demon! But...
