Yellow (Kyle Broflovski X Reader)

Sanitation Trial

"I can't stay neutral, and it's killing me."

In addition to the sobs of the girl he had liked so much since 4th grade of elementary school, Kyle could also hear the ticking of the clock that never stopped. Not only those two sounds, but he could also hear his own heartbeat because he was so scared to death. Both of his eyes were still wide open under his ushanka hat that Y/n had forced to be used as a blindfold, and his vision was pitch black. While Y/n was lost in her cries, Kyle focused on holding himself back so his hands, which were holding Y/n's face, didn't tremble from the fear gripping his heart.

"It's okay, Y/n."

Hearing the comfort from Kyle only made Y/n cry even harder. There were also more and more tears that landed on his cheeks, even on Kyle's nose. Until now, Kyle had never complained about it and Y/n didn't care about anything anymore because her mind was so blurry.

"I don't understand, Kyle..."

"What don't you understand?" Amazingly, Kyle was able to maintain his affectionate and gentle demeanor. He did all of this for the sake of his beloved Y/n.

"I don't understand why I only feel calm when you kiss me..."

Hearing that, Kyle was naturally shocked from under his hat.

"I..." Y/n gulped for a moment. Her eyes were still tightly closed as her tears continued to flow. "I'm sorry, Kyle. Yesterday... Kenny kissed me."

Kyle was no longer surprised by that.

"And I... I didn't like being kissed by him! I have no problem with you kissing me, but him? I don't like it! I don't like it, Kyle!"

"Y/n...

"I hope you're my first and last, Kyle..."

Kyle didn't say anything else but kept trying to caress Y/n's cheeks to wipe away her tears. It didn't really work well considering Y/n's tears didn't stop falling, but at least she knew that Kyle would always be there for her and accept her. He was trying to express his love into this touch.

After a while, Kyle became even more worried about Y/n's condition. He decided to ask, "Can I see you now?"

"Y-Yeah..." she said in a lower voice as she forced herself to speak amidst her sobs because Kyle couldn't possibly see her if she just nodded.

As Kyle was about to remove his hat from his eyes, his hands, which had been caressing her face, slowly released Y/n. So she decided to hide her face with her own palms. Meanwhile, Kyle then lifted his hat and was immediately stunned by the sight of Y/n trembling and her shoulders rising and falling. Such a sight shattered Kyle's heart into pieces, making him also feel sad and wanting to cry with her. He should have been happy that Y/n only liked to be kissed by him, but Kyle knew exactly that the girl might feel remorseful towards Kenny because she would hurt his feelings. Kyle was also aware that besides that reason, Y/n must also be devastated because she didn't keep the promise she made to him yesterday.

This thought made Kyle quickly get up from his back and grab Y/n's wrists. Gently, he pulled it to the side to reveal her anguish face.

"Y/n, you have the right to choose."

Kyle's statement made Y/n confused. Slowly, she half opened her eyes.

"You don't have to always trying to stay objective. If you constantly prioritizing other people's feelings, you're only going to hurt yourself more. And I don't want you to always going like this..."

"But I don't deserve to hope for you, Kyle!" Y/n pounded on Kyle's chest with her fists as hard as she could, remembering Kyle's grip on her wrists. "I have nothing to give you in return!"