2 hearts, 2 problems(F!reader x Raiden Ei)

What is home?

"What do you mean, she's missing?!"
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Lumine stood nervously in front of ei in the plane of euthymia. The electro archon looked livid. The blonde shrugged. "Well, i couldn't find her this morning. Looked everywhere, asked all over inazuma. Gone."

Truth be told, Lumine missed having y/n around as a friend. So when the kitsune had gone missing, she'd panicked and tried everything to find her. She'd just returned from a grueling walk to the narukami shrine.

(Yes i think i am starting to get over my hatred toward lumine)

"I thought you might know where she was." Lumine said cautiously, trying her best to ignore the dangerously electrified air. Ei snapped back at the traveler with an angry tone. "You're supposed to be with her, you two made a deal!" Lumine shook her head to get rid of her growing frustration. "She wasn't here this morning and i checked the entire place, so stop yapping at me and actually help!"

The raiden shogun was also in the plane of euthymia but she simply stood there with a calm, "you kind of deserved it" expression.

Lumine sighed in annoyance."clearly this isn't getting anywhere-" "clearly! So get out of my domain and figure something out if you're so smart!" And with that, lumine blinked and ended up back outside the tenshukaku. She punched the wall in annoyance before storming off with paimon floating behind her.

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Far away in Snezhnaya
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1st POV

"Y/n! Are you coming or not? The meeting's about to start."

"I'm coming just calm your robotic ass down..." i sighed, brushing my h/c hair. I winced slightly when the brush came to the one of the earrings hanging on my vulpine ears. I remembered piercing Miko's ears for her. But i couldn't dwell on the past. I picked up my mask and examined it.

It had been 2 months since i left inazuma once again. Kuni-uh, Scaramouche had persuaded me to switch sides. I smiled as my hand trailed over the patterns of my fatui mask. 6th harbinger, shared with none other than my amazing child. Not bad at all.

As i stared at the mask some more, my thoughts started wandering back to Inazuma for the hundredth time that day.

Ei had finally crossed the line. Just thinking about her made me want to cry, destroy something and die. I knew that somewhere in my now cold heart, there had been that small sliver of hope. But it had been completely destroyed , leaving no warmth behind. It wasn't my problem anymore. Not like i could suffer any extra.

I remembered that day i decided to help Lumine. I'd missed my home, always felt it calling out to me in my dreams. I was connected to the place i was raised, and had spent centuries living in. The cherry blossoms, the calming sounds of the streams trickling down the flowering earth.

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I laid on the soft grass under the calming shade of a sakura tree. The cool evening breeze send a rustling sound through the trees as i plucked a flower and watched the wind carry it away. Gazing up at the cloud-streaked sky, the sun cast a warm ray of light upon my comfortable spot. The yellow sky slowly faded into red, purple, and dark blue as you got closer to the top.

"Big sis!" I turned to find miko running toward me. "Yes, Miko?" Miko smiled at me excitedly. "I wanna pierce my ears like you!" I nearly fell backward. "'Are you sure?" She was definitely sure. Well, my ear had nearly gotten infected when i did that but i agreed. I then spent half an hour piercing her ear with a pocket knife(this is not child abuse, they are immortal!). Miko did squeal in pain initially but i was done in no time. She quickly raced off to buy some fancy earrings. Teenagers...

By now darkness had overtaken the sky, and stars started to glow softly in the night. I loved living here, with everyone i loved around me. I closed my eyes. Maybe i would rest, just for a while under the safe cover of a sakura tree.

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I would never lie and say i didn't miss it. After all, I'd lived there for all my life. I didn't know how i felt anymore. All my bad memories were connected to inazuma, but the beautiful nation always stayed in my mind wherever i went.

Like her.

Some would say my worst flaw was that i ran from my problems, and never faced them. I admit, they were right. But i had tried to face them. I'd tried to fix things, right? That was enough on my part. Running away once again may have been a shitty move, but i was done. Nobody appreciated anything i did. They all watched as i suffered through humiliation and pain, trying to fix things. So i needed to escape, even if for a while.

All the pain ei had put me through... back then, i would have died for her. I would have suffered a hundred lifetimes of pain just to be with her. But she repaid that loyalty by shutting me out. And when i came back intending to help improve our relationship, she'd kicked me out. I would not devote any more time to someone who didn't care.

Plus, snezhnaya was nice. The cool, icy air was amazing as snowflakes fell. I'd missed this place, and annoying some of the harbingers. Pierro did not want anything to do with me after the last time I visited and pulled a prank on him. Salty old man, it had been 200 years. The palace was also quite lively, and my new...house.

It felt wrong to call this place my home, because i belonged in Inazuma. But the nation of eternity had caused almost all my suffering. So what about Mondstadt? Venti..all those late nights challenging each other to drinking contests...I'd grown fond of the annoying bard. Everything had began in Mondstadt. So should it have ended there, instead of here?

I had no time to decide because a second later...

"Y/N!!!"

I rolled my eyes. "Alright alright, I'm done."

With that, i walked out the door to begin another journey.

But this time...i was done playing the good guy.

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You never know what you have
Until you lose it.
And once you have lost it,
You can never get it back.
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Ok geez that was a very dramatic chapter with even more y/n mental breakdown! So yea she has joined the dark side.

Again i apologize for how shitty i am at writing long chapters. Idkkkk help i just can't seem to make stuff longer ;;

Btw helpppp i want to continue this book into possibly sumeru, and definitely Fontaine. Ngl i think our relationship with Ei is fucked up already. So should i stay true to the book or turn this into a various x reader? Because DAMN those Fontaine characters do be fine... but idk what do so you decide.

I did promise some side chapters of y/n receiving different visions soooo they might be coming in the near future :)

-melon