Broken (Sad Todoroki x Bakugo)

Dreams of horror

Todoroki's POV

I opened my eyes, and saw myself high up in the sky, on top of some clouds. The atmosphere was windy, but calm. There was no signs of any life up here other than me. I sat on the clouds, enjoying the view displayed in front of me, when I felt someone tap on my shoulder. I turned around, and saw...Mother?

What is she doing here?

"Hello, my love," She started. Her voice sounded warm and soft, just like a whisper from an angel. "I know you're dealing with so much right now, and I'm so sorry that I can't help you. Just keep hanging on. I know you can do it." She gave me a warm smile, before slowly fading away with the wind. I watched her ashes fly away farther in the sky, clinging on to her last words. 

 I don't think I can handle it much longer, Mother.

...

All of the sudden, the sky turned from warm to cold in seconds, with the wind violently blowing on my face. I felt two hands roughly place on my shoulders, startling me as I shook a little bit, only to see Bakugo's face looking dead at me from behind. 

"Where my money at?" His voice still sounded harsh as ever, even in such a place like this.

"How many times do I have to tell you, I don't have it." I yelled back. At this point, I was done with this repetitive question and consequences afterwards.

"What are you, broke or something?" That stung a little, but I kept my composure in check and continued on.

"Yes. Yes I am. Got a problem with that?" My eyes locked into his, making his eyes slowly start to look like a mixture of confusion and hesitant as he looked away from my gaze.

"Oh, well...I thought you'd have some so I could...help my family." He whispered the last words. Now it was my turn to look confused. What'd he mean by that?

"What do you mean by that?" His eyes suddenly looked like panic as he turns his back on me.

"I-It's nothing. Forget what I just said." He whispered before slowly walking away. I found myself running after him, yelling at him to stop, but he continued to walk. Eventually I was out of breath, and stopped running to catch my breath. His figure slowly went out of view, disappearing into the clouds. My body stood there frozen, dazed into my thoughts as I started to question if I misunderstood everything, when I heard a loud boom of thunder. I jolted from my frozen state and looked up at the sky. The clouds were even more darker than they were before, looking like they were about to rain on top of me. Out of nowhere, I felt a large pair of eyes staring deep into my soul. I slowly turned my head around, and saw the one thing I feared the most: my father, Endeavor. He looked huge, and was standing on top of a huge cloud, death glaring into my cold eyes. 

"What are you doing here, sitting around? You can be useful for once, and actually be a stronger and smarter hero." His voice echoed through the clouds. Here we go again...

"You know,  Bakugo is 1st in your class, while you're just sitting in 5th, not doing anything to improve yourself. If you wanna be a waste to my time and my money, just say so, and I can kick you out in a second." He continued to rant about how terrible and useless of a son I was, while I just stood there, taking in every single word he said. Something started to grow inside me. A feeling of emptiness, that I have no one to talk to about how I feel, and how I'm not the smartest, or most attractive, or most likeable by society. All I wanted was for someone to truly appreciate me as myself, and not talk sh!t about me, or judge me from afar. My heart started to ache, and I could feel tears stinging in my eyes. 

Is this what I've grown to be? A weak hero who isn't ever going to reach my father's standards? Is my life going to be like this forever?

There's nothing you can do about it.  

Not this again, at a time like this.

You'll forever be a useless boy who's just a waste in this world.

That's not true!

Just admit it! You're not liked at school, or home, or anywhere! No one would like the fits of you.

I am liked! There has to be someone out there who still likes me for who I am...

...right?

The voice stopped talking inside my head. I opened my eyes, and saw father still standing there. The lightning was striking more louder and frequently. I looked all around me, and saw all of my classmates from school surrounding me in a enlarged circle. They were all pointing fingers at me, laughing at me, calling me weak or poor. I fell down to my knees, bending my face down to face the ground, letting the voices overlap me in my head. They repeated over and over again, slowly getting deeper and deeper into my head. I tightly grabbed my hair as I tried to endure it, but couldn't hold it for much longer.

"STOP IT!!" The voices suddenly stopped. Everything went dead silent for a moment, and I continued to go on.

"I MAY BE WEAK, BUT I'M STRONG AT HEART! I KNOW I'M NOT SMART, OR STRONG LIKE BAKUGO, BUT I AM ME IN MY OWN WAY. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO NOTICE THE EFFORT I PUT TO BE WHO I AM TODAY! If there even is one out there..." I went into a full breakdown, letting the emotions get the best of me. Tears were pouring out of my face like a waterfall, and my hand gripped harder and harder against my scalp, making it bleed. After a while, I looked up and saw everyone staring at me, disgust covering their faces. 

I guess no one heard me, huh? Is this how the world is going to be like, being filled with selfish people who only care about the best of someone?

Suddenly, I felt a drop on my cheek. I looked up, and saw that it was starting to rain. I relaxed myself, laying down on the clouds, closing my eyes as I felt each drop fall upon me. The clouds slowly drifted apart, making me fall from above. 

To be honest, if this is how it's going to be like, I'd rather die peacefully than continue to live through pain.

Just as I accepted the end of it, I jolted my eyes awake and rose up from my bed.