what happened to me and why I will continue this story

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I have returned.
Whoever still remembers this story?

So little explanation to my absence:

About 3 years ago I attempted to take my own life (I wont go into how or what I did)
But basically I woke up as a vedgetable in the hospital. I was super confused about everything, I struggled talking and I couldnt walk or do simple things on my own anymore.
I also couldnt remember a lot of things and pieces of my life. Up to now I still realise there are holes in my memory (this includes wattpad)

I dont remember writting this story or what I had planed for it, reading this felt like reading a story someone else wrote. I read it back then and I tho (humble me yes) I liked it, it was not good for me at all to be reading it so I kept my habds off wattpad and focused on recovering first.

Now I feel like I am in a much better place, I 100% regret what I did to myself and I am getting unexpected support from outside sources and even managed to get a job.

That being said I was curious one day and went back to get some pictures and other notes from my old phone and then came across wattpad again. Now ive finished reading my stories and I literally made myself cry I think the way I wrote my stories wad me fantasizing about finally comitting to suicide and jokes aside its honestly a little sad to see how low I really was because I cannot remember much of it including when I finally got to that point of doing it.

Anyway I thought hard about deleting the stories cause a little bit I was scared this is triggering to others because it just keeps gettkng lower and lower but then I read comments and i saw the tag "angst with happy ending" so now im thinking maybe i wrote this more as a way to comfort myself? Like to talk hope back into me.
So nowi got this urge to finish these stories with hopeful endings.

I'm rambling, anyway if anyone is coming back to this and says "no this was horrible this is dangerous please remove this" I will but I feel guilty about all the comments from ppl who liked this story and got disappointed by the cliffhanger so I'll try to give it another shot.

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