Useless Misfit (Klance)

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2 years have past.

Everyone had moved on
Going on new missions and just not talking about Keith anymore since it pained everyone to think of it.

Lance hasn't said much ever since. He had changed he was quiet and didn't laugh or smile anymore after he came back from the ship he had yelled at everyone, blaming them for not having seen that Keith was indeed in pain all along. For that Keith was actual alone and minded for that pidge got captured and caused all this. For that they left without helping.

But inside he blamed no one but himself. He was selfish, he should have listened to Keith he should've taken care of him.

It was always Keith who was there for him and noticed when something was wrong with everyone. And especially him when they were still in a relationship. Maybe he just couldn't take it anymore and that's why he broke up.

But instead of asking and searching for what was wrong lance had just blamed him and ran off like he always did. Everyone always said that Keith was the angry and easily tempered guy but that wasn't true. He was just easily triggered to act defensive of himself. The true angry one is and has always been lance.

Maybe Keith was just too used about be in alone that he always thought he needed to defend himself.
He had no friends in the garrison and never brought a parent to the festival's or even the big tests.

Whenever someone would succeed he would run up to their parent and they would leave to discuss how to celebrate but Keith..

Keith walked down the road on his own hands in his locket and looking emptily in front of him even if he had succeeded, it was like he never even cared. And lance had been mad at him because it looked so easy but what if it wasn't easy what if he just didn't want to show his emotion. What if it was hurting him seeing everyone with their parents when his wouldn't bother showing up.

,, shiro .." Lance walked into the room where shiro had been in talking with allura. Both instantly jumped up with red faces.

She cleared her throat and rushed past me out of the room while he frowned at shiro not even wanting to now he just rose his hane when he was about to explain himself.

,, I want to talk to you about something" he simply said sitting down besides shiro, who ended up sighing at it already knowing what it was about.

,, is this about Keith? .. I told you I don't want to talk about him just yet.. " he started ,, it's not good if we keep talking about this, we should just hurry the past and move on, Keith's death wasn't in vain it was for all of us, he's a hero-"
,, I'm not here because I want to blame anyone I need to .. I need to know more about him he never talked about himself "
Lance finally got to the point in effort nervously playing with his clothes knees as his hands started to sweat.

,, lance its been 2 years, why do you want to dig this up now"

,, I couldn't sleep .. again, I feel like there's something I need to do. I don't think he's dead I think he survived I just need to get closure I need to know more and lotor words keep replaying in my head.

He said that now that he can't pilot any lion we will throw him out .. like all the others did" his eyes rose to land on shiros noticing how the elders eyes changed to sadness for a moment as he looked down.
,, what did he mean ? He also said that we will hate him once we know what he is and that he can't keep hurting himself to stop his genes from showing"

,, Keith hasn't had an easy life lance... I don't want to ruin your last memories of him with these terrible " shiro explained but lance wouldn't accept this answer.

,, I need to know shiro, I won't back down until I know " his gaze was firm and determined making shiro sigh again.

,, Keith doesn't exactly have a family like any of us, his mum left when he was still young and his father had passed away only a few years later. I met Keith before he entered the garrison on a visit to his school.

You should've seen him" he chuckled weakly ,, all the kids were just jumping around me in excitement asking me question and staring at me in amazement and wonder .. But Keith, he was sitting all the way in the back, staring out of the window as if the birds were more interesting than me "

,, sounds like him .." Lance muttered sadly to himself.

,, when they did the test for who would be able to enter the garrison, he wasn't interested either, he tried to avoid it rather and sat somewhere in the corner while all the other kids tried to pass the test.

I was curious so I pulled him out of the corner and talked him into trying it too, he bearly spoke. I think he was just a annoyed by me.

He mastered the test better than anyone I've seen. His expression when he went through the test. He smiled but his eyes lit up, I knew he had to enter the garrison. So I fought for a place for him."

,, so he's always been a loner ?"
Shiros faint smile faded when he glanced back at lance.

,, not for no reason.. he was living in a foster family back then, I found out once I wanted to talk to him since he declined the offer to get to the garrison.

They wernet treating him well lance. This foster care families he had been in were always treating him badly because he wasn't opening up to any of them, he was just always different in school and in private I don't know why they always treated him badly because of it.

He was often beaten or starved. Never allowed to do stuff and brought down to his knees to think he was worthless.. 

I just had to get him out somehow but he's always end up in another horrible family even as he entered the garrison, I saw him happy for a week maybe before he ended up being bullied because he was better without even trying. Maybe it was a terrible idea to put him into a family that would never be home. But i was scared he would end up being mistreated again that I thought that would be the best option..." he stopped talking hitting onto both his lips making lance lean forward.

,, what happened ?" He asked earmgetly but shiro just shock his head obviously in guilt before he continued ,, shiro .."

,, I got a call that Keith was in the hospital, he tried to hang himself "

Lqnce leaned back, eyes filling with tears that wouldn't spill at the mere thought of young Keith wrapping a rope around his neck and jumping.. at the mere thought of Keith feeling so alone and hurt that he felt the need to take his own life.

And lance was there at that time, he was at the garrison making fun of Keith and laughing at him whenever Keith was alone or lashing out at someone, laughing at his absence without even thinking of why. Without knowing or carrying to know that Keith had actually wanted to die in that moment because of people like lance.

,, lance " shiro called when lance got up and simply walked out of the room not wanting to talk about this anymore.

The images of little Keith suffering was haunting him. He couldn't recall Keith ever crying, imagining him cry in pain from everything he's been through was tearig hid heart apart.

He just wished he had been there for him like he was for himself.
But all lance did was hurt him and then lean on him.
He didn't deserve Keith yet he wished he could at least try to be there for him now, now that it's too late.