2022 Jul. KAF : I and Him

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by Eyes9623

by Eyes9623

July 39,2022

I and Him

They say the fastest way to forget is to forgive, but in my case I forgive but I don't forget. I don't know how many times I've cried but all I know is the happiness I felt was genuinely for me. I've shed bucket of tears, but who am I to feel this type of pain when at the very start I have nobody to hold on and I am nobody to everyone.

"I miss him", the phrase I always say when I miss you so much but your no where to be found. Its like your scared of getting found out. You keep me in secret but I keep you like as my human diary. How did I forget that I am the 'nobody' everyone's talking about.

We drove the night away, forgetting our worries and problems. We hooked up like nobodies watching, staring at me with your sincere eyes. How could I forget how cruel you were. Those eyes shows your deepest desire, those lips shed lies beneath your soul. I became your slave the moment you accept me for who I was.

Who am I to judge? You knew me like the back of your hands and yet the day had come. I never realize until I feel and saw what really hurt me the most.

Through years of being with the same person, my greatest fear had came true. Falling for the person who doesn't feel the same way is heart breaking. My heart crack into pieces, it shattered everywhere.

Tears stream down my face as I pick up the pieces of my heart. Suddenly I felt disgusted and confront him. Staring at him full of pain in my eyes, I can't hide it no more.

"Paano mo nasisikmura na tignan ako gamit ang mga mata mo knowing na ganon ka din tumingin sa kanya?"

"Paano mo nagagawang hawakan ang kamay ko knowing na hinawakan mo din siya katulad ng paghawak mo sakin?".

"Paano mo ako nagagawang halikan knowing na hinahalikan mo Siya?"

"Paano mo nasisikmura ang mga ginagawa mo knowing na nagche-cheat ka?!!"

Yes he cheated using me but it doesn't mean na it's my fault when in fact I am the victim, nagamit lang din naman ako. In this story hind ako ang kontrabida, it's his girlfriend. Before you judge me for what I've done, hear me out first.

I was in Grade 9 when I first met my best friend. Don't get me wrong it wasn't the first time, I've seen him so many times before, he doesn't really know me pa that I am existing and to be honest I had a little crush on him before I even met him officially. But his this type of person that doesn't take school seriously and a very mysterious guy. He immediately caught my attention.

When I was in grade 9 I am a popular student and had a lot of boys wrapped around my fingers. They say I'm nice, had a great body and most of all they showered me with complements because they thought I'm so gorgeous but you know every pretty girls have a hidden side of them that you don't wanna know. I lived a pretty average life, not so poor and not so rich just balance.

Because of my popularity, everyone wants to be my friend. I joined Glee Club, Dance Team, Art contest. I even joined cheerleading. It was fun being known by everyone, because of that my fame had rise in social media and I gain tuns of likers and followers. Everywhere I go, they knew my name.