College For Stickmen

36 - Sorry just wasnt enough..

Second had terrible attendance these last few weeks of college, ever since the fight went down. Green and Yellow would shoot him and Red glares each time they crossed paths, so the two boys tended to avoid them.

Second has been wanting to apologize to Blue for a while now, but each time he tried to get close, Yellow would be around and shut him down. He needed to catch Blue alone but he didn't know when he could..

"You.. alright, Love?" Red asked, looking at Second. Second looked up, realizing he had been zoning out.

"Uh.. yeah, I'm fine." He have a nervous smile. The two watched as the professor continued to teach and that's when Second spoke again.

"You and Blue were close, right?" He asked in a low tone.

"Huh? I mean.. not as close as Yellow— until they started dating, that is— but yeah. We hung out and did weed a bit.. why?" Red raised an eyebrow.

"Just.. curious." Second spoke.

Blue must be extremely hurt knowing his (ex) best friend was siding with the person that badmouthed his family.. this only made Second feel worse. He had to apologize! He needed to!

Blue was sitting in the library as free period finally roamed around and he figured he needed to get in a study sesh. So he was sat at a table studying for the upcoming midterm— ..wait.

Why was he of all people studying? This must be Yellow's influence, huh.

"Hey, babe." He heard a voice next to him followed by a chair moving as he turned and saw Yellow.

"Oh, hey, Yell." He gave a small smile.

"You alright?" He asked.

"Uh.. yeah." Blue panicked. "W-why do you ask??" He said. Yellow simply glanced at him, then at the book on the table.

Blue sighed and closed the book.

"I-I'm fine. I just.. I need a breather." He said as he stood up. "..Alone." He said before exiting the library. Maybe the restroom would be a good idea.

As Second stood in front of the restroom mirror, he lifted his shirt and looked at his body.

"I..I need to eat more.." he mumbled. Maybe he would get extras for lunch today or buy some snacks. As he continued to look at himself, that's when he heard the bathroom door swing open. He turned to look and saw none other than Blue, who jumped a bit at the sight of Second.

"I-I'm sorry, I'll go.." He said, before Second jumped aswell.

"N-no!" He said. "Uh.."

It was awkward silence and bad tension. So bad, you could cut through it with a knife. Finally, Blue spoke up.

"I'm just here to use the restroom. I'll get out of your perfect preppy way afterwards." He said.

Second sighed. "Blue, seriously, I think we need to talk."

"What is there to even talk about, Second??" Blue whipped his head around. "You made an insensitive comment towards my family! That's all there was!"

"I-I didn't mean it, man!"

"Oh so, you not meaning it just somehow makes this better??"

"Blue!" Second shouted.

"WHAT, SECOND. WHAT IS IT?? WHAT THE FUCK COULD YOU POSSIBLY SAY THAT COULD MAKE THIS BETTER??"

"IM SO FUCKING SORRY, DAMNIT!! IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY!!" It was silent.

".. So, after all.. of that, you just— expect me to simply forgive you??" Blue said with a smile.

"I.." Second was at a loss for words at this point. He didn't know what to say or what to do.

"No.." Blue said. "Haha.. it's not that simple, is it, Sec. it's never been that simple with you. You're always.. acting like you're just so.. perfect."

"Blue—" Second tried to reason with him but Blue kept cutting him off.

"With your perfect family that loves you and cares for you, not once did you stop and think how I felt about any of this! No.. this isn't about me. It was never about me. It's about them."

"Blue, what are you—"

"You're only here to apologize for them. Not for me. You want my forgiveness just so Green and Yellow will stop hating you. Well guess what!" He laughed. "I forgive you! You have their forgiveness!"

"Blue this isn't about them!!"

"Hehe, of course it is! Why else would you be apologizing? Surely you don't have my best interest at heart, why would you. After all I'm just "Yellow's boyfriend."" Blue smiled.

"Blue are you even hearing yourself right now?? You sound crazy"

"OH SO NOW IM THE CRAZY ONE??"

"BLUE I CAM HERE FOR YOU! Don't you get it?? I'm apologizing because I feel bad!! I acknowledged that I hurt you and now I'm trying to own up to it, Damnit!!"

"WELL ITS NOT ENOUGH, OKAY??" Blue shouted, as tears streamed down his face like a waterfall, making Second jump back a lil.

"YOU.. YOU JUST— ITS NOT ENOUGH. YOU CANT JUST WALTZ IN HERE AND EXPECT ME TO FORGIVE YOU JUST LIKE THAT!!" Blue sighed, wiping his tears.

"Blue.." Second mumbled.

"It's okay!" Blue smiled. "It's okay, it doesn't matter. Honestly." Blue said, walking to the bathroom door.

"I'll tell the others that you apologized and I'll convince them to let you and Red back. But.. to me, this just isn't enough." Blue said before walking out the door.

Second stood there, unsure of what to do next.. he hated people..

People are strange.

The whole walk back to the dorms was weird. He was accompanied by Red but it.. felt super off. It felt like something was missing.

Once they got to Second's dorm, Red cuddled Second on the bed sensing he was upset about earlier.

"It'll all be okay, froot loop." Red said, playing with Second's hair. He then leans down a bit to kiss him on the forehead. Second looked up at Red with glossy eyes.

"You promise?" He asked, as Red simply chuckled.

"Yes, Love." Red smiled. "I promise, it'll all get so much better."