TERI DEEWAANI

Falling For Him

The flashback continues.....

Prachi :

It has been a week since Papa got discharge and we took him home. In these 7 days, everything has changed for me.

Although we are still at Riddhima's house.She, Neelam aunty and Aarush never till now had made us feel that we are guests here, they have accepted us as their own family.

They take care of Papa like their own family member, Maa and Avni has also started living a normal happy life but for me, nothing remained same after that day.

No one knows.....No one really knows what am I suffering from.

Pretending to ignore someone and dying to talk to them is the worst kind of feeling that I have learnt in these seven days.

I miss him, I miss him badly....I want to shout on him, I want to fight with him, I want to cry on his shoulder, but at the same time I don't want to face him, I don't want to see him, As I know The moment he will come in front of my eyes, I will lost control on all my emotions, I will run into his arms and I will start crying senselessly.

" Prachi" Riddhima Came to me when I was sitting in a corner of my room.

" We came back and see these are Sharma uncle's latest reports, he is all okay now." Riddhima Said happily.

Yes, Riddhima, Avni and Maa went to Sanjeevni Hospital along with Papa for a weekly follow-up visit.

Riddhima asked me to come with her but I denied making an excuse of a slight headache, as I know he will be there too.

I was ignoring to talk about him from past seven days but everyone in the house is just praising him day and night, for Papa's improving health, like he is the one who did some Miracle overnight.

"You know Prachi, I met Kushaal and he asked about everyone, specially You, he asked me why you did not came to the hospital and I told him that you're having a headache." Riddhima said to me munching on her chips.

My ears stood up hearing his name...

"What...what did he said?" I tried to know about him.

" He was worried for you, he didn't talk to me very much like he always used to do, he was not in his usual self." Riddhima said sitting straight.

"What do you mean?' I was alert now.

"I don't know but.....I feel like Kushaal has changed a lot after the day Sharma uncle got discharge." Riddhima started saying.

"He used to smile and laugh and remain cheerful and talk to everyone when Sharma Uncle was admitted in hospital and you used to visit there but now I rarely see smile on his face."
She added.

" This whole week has passed without him attending any of our hang-outs, before When Aman and I used to meet at cafe or Restaurants, Kushaal used to join us and we three used to have fun together talking, gossiping, teasing, and fighting with each other, but now, Kushaal no more attend any of our hang-outs." She said with sad face.

" He just stays in his cabin and works day and night, he does his surgeries and handle his patients with a damn serious face, he is not smiling anymore Prachi.......he is not smiling anymore." Riddhima said with tears in her eyes.

"I miss the old Kushaal that I had as a childhood Best friend. I wish I could know what is going on his mind." Tears were falling freely from Riddhima's eyes.

On the other hand, I was stiff....as a stone.

My insides twisted hearing this about him. My eyes which were cold till now were having fresh tears in them, My lips quivered to call his name. I had sealed my lips not to utter his name at all but my heart was continuesly chanting his name silently this whole week.