♥︎ ChanCheol os book ♥︎

Don't wanna cry

Top : Chan

Type : Angst and cute

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Chan doesn't even know how he feels after PD nim's announcement. He can't decipher his own feelings; it's not anger or sadness, perhaps more incomprehension mixed with disappointment.

To be quite honest, he doesn't know why his boss is asking him to sing when he's not at all ready to do so. He's been immersed in the world of dance since he was a child and he loves it, he has a relatively stable voice for rap, he's trained a lot for it, but singing ?

No, definitely not. It's not that he doesn't like it, it's that he's never been interested in doing it himself, he's always based himself on what he knows how to do without being interested in anything else, so trying something so technical? No, it's definitely not for him.

Chan sighs, looking out of his bedroom window, before closing his eyes and letting a second sigh escape the barrier of his lips. He's wanted to talk to his boss, but every time the opportunity presents itself, he doesn't dare, his words get stuck in his throat, and it creates a ball in his stomach because he's so stressed.

He doesn't even know how to get out of this situation, it's never going to do it, he'll never be able to do it. Even though Seungcheol and Vernon have helped him enormously, he knows he can't do it; it's completely impossible for him to do what the PD nim wants him to do.

That's why, when the day comes, the day he's supposed to perform his song, he's so stressed that he stops in the middle of his performance and sighs, shakes his head negatively and asks to start again, the boss lets him and, as if he's passed on his stress to Seungcheol, the older man comes and grabs his hand. Their fingers intertwine and their eyes meet, Seungcheol nods and smiles softly, Chan sighs he feels soothed at the idea of having his leader supporting him, and thanks to the older man's help, the younger manages to sing properly.

Except that on the day of the final performance, Seungcheol couldn't hold Chan's hand, and the young man was really unstable throughout. So the PD nim decided to remove him from the group. All the members bowed their heads in deep sorrow at the announcement, then came over one by one to give the young man a hug. Chan nevertheless kept his head up and a slight smile on his lips, let the members dry their tears on his jacket and after a final hug to Vernon, Chan left through the back door of the building.

Seungcheol's heart is so heavy, he decides to chase Chan outside. When he arrives outside, he finds himself in a heavy rain, his heart beating at a speed he never thought possible, his eyes filled with emotion, Seungcheol sees the youngest, so he starts running after him, calling out his name, of course Chan stops and turns to Seungcheol, the rapper catches his breath and when he sees the youngest smiling at him with tears in his eyes, he releases everything he's been holding back for a while.

" Chani I have so much admiration, so much respect and I have so much love to offer you. A lot of love, yes in just a few months I've fallen in love with you... Completely madly in love even, my feelings for you are indescribable but they are powerful, strong and indestructible, Chan. I don't want you to leave, don't let me go, please..."

At this, Chan simply smiled...

" Seungcheol, please don't cry. And I can't answer your feelings right now, but I do ask you to watch the video I've prepared. I also ask you not to lose hope and go after your dreams. With or without me you're incredible hyung, you're full of talent and you're going to take the band to the top with the others, you're going to create the best music I'm sure. Don't forget Cheollie-hyung, you're not alone and you never will be."

Following his speech, Chan smiles more and slowly strokes Seungcheol's hair before leaving him alone. He walks away from the rapper and the older man has never felt so empty. He feels a little guilty, to be honest, if he'd helped Chan more, maybe he'd have stayed ?

With his head full of questions, he returns to the agency in tears, but Joshua obviously comes to comfort him.

" I don't wanna cry Joshua, I assure you, I don't wanna..."

" Shh, hyung you have the right to cry okay no one has the right to judge you for it."

The embrace lasts a long time, until the leader calms down and once he's completely calmed down, Joshua tells him that the members are in the lounge to watch the video left by Chan. S.Coups nods and together they leave to join the other boys.

All the members watch together the video prepared by Chan. Emotion overwhelms them, and when Seungcheol is given his speech, his poor little heart breaks. It's impossible for it to end like this, for him, he hadn't even started anything together yet, how could it end so quickly? They still have so much to live for, so much to discover, so much to see, but Seungcheol categorically refuses to move on without the younger man.

Several months go by, Seungcheol can't stop thinking about Chan, and the group misses Jun's presence too, because yes, the young man isn't completely perfect in Korean and has been sidelined too. Today, in the practice room, the PD nim has a surprise, the members wonder what's going on and their eyes start to shine when they see Chan and Jun: the boss asks the sidelined people to come to him and he says give Jun and Chan one last chance, and the group can officially start at 13. Seungcheol is so shocked that he doesn't move, but Chan comes up to him.

He asks him to follow, the older man comes to his senses and the two men head outside. A light rain accompanies them, but it doesn't bother them in the slightest.

" Cheollie-hyung, I'm honestly sorry I didn't respond to your feelings a few months ago, but I didn't want us to start something when I was leaving. Today I've got a second chance to accompany you in this wonderful group, and I don't intend to waste it. I can also tell you that your feelings are mixed, I've loved you from the first second I laid eyes on you, honestly. "

Seungcheol sighs with relief. Tears of happiness roll down his little cheeks.

" I don't wanna cry fuck. Not in front of you." Seungcheol wipes his eyes annoyed at his own behavior and continues.

" My feelings for you haven't changed Chani and I don't think they ever will. They can only deepen day by day not die out. "

Seungcheol lowers his eyes to the ground and doesn't stop sniffling. Chan walks over to him, takes the older boy's face between his small hands and wipes the little salty beads that run down the older boy's cheeks.

" You know Chani there's no point in what you're doing because there's rain mixing with my tears."

" I know hyung I just like taking your face in my hands that's all."

Seungcheol starts to blush, his eyes leave the ground and come to plunge into Chan's, by mutual agreement they close their eyes and they join their lips in a sweet kiss, sealing their budding love.

It's the start of a new adventure for Seungcheol and Chan, a story full of twists and turns and deep feelings. The reconstituted group begins to work together, pulling out all the stops to succeed. Chan discovers a new passion for singing, under Seungcheol's admiring gaze. Of course, he's interested in it, but he doesn't do it first; he's definitely better off with rap and dance, leaving singing to his best enemy, Seungkwan.

[ Together, they overcome obstacles and challenges, strengthening their bond day by day. ]

And as the group prepares for their first big performance as a thirteen-piece, Seungcheol and Chan hold hands, ready to face the future hand in hand. Their love story blossoms over time, their mutual love taking them to new heights. And in the spotlight, they know that whatever happens, they'll always have each other, ready to face any challenge together.

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