Half Girl describes that vulnerable side of me!
I believe that, It is through darkness that we shine, this version of the book highlight a dark side "the vulnerable" one, when i had zero confidence and only leaned on others to get validation, when...
It is lie i keep saying to not seem vulnerable and weak
In front of those i encounter and suddenly meet
I put a mask full of confidence that i am untouchable
But at one conversation my bandages fall of And my scars are now naked and shown to the world
I feel small and like a bird falling from its nest
Cuz now i will be trapped here down and people will know how deeply hurt i am
I start overthinking, and have inside conversations in my mind
The kind that Steals sleep from my eyes and peace from my mind
I start curling under the stars Covering myself with different shadows and lights
Counting sheep hoping to have a long blink
That lasts until the sun arise and warm my heart again!
But even though the sun comes My gray clouds won't allow it to touch me yet
Unresolved pain hidden in rooms in my heart that i searched but i couldn't find
Praying and crying to magically start to feel, clean and make my mind at ease
That keep thinking only of what I lost instead of what I can gain
The pain that's hidden inside my galaxy formed black holes
That steals the glimpses of happiness i sense and feel
It makes me project all the fears and keep running in a maze that never ends or allow me to leave
I keep resisting exposing this pain and let it go
As if i will lose who i am
But till when i will keep counting the sheep
And keep sailing in the dark ocean now for years
I want to reach the shore already
I want to feel strong and anchored
This fragile side of me that feels trapped in the inside pain that i bottled up through the years want to be released
I start counting again but instead of sheep i count breaths now 1, 2, 3 breath in
1, 2, 3 breath out, it started to hurt, it hurts to feel.
The inside pain have been served!
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