Undercare|| Fyozai

•Chapter fifteen

Dazai passes past dead corpes that he did not kill. He steps his way away from those bloody messes. In his right ear there is a silent line that is connected to Fyodor who is waiting outside of the ability bars. A wall that protects The Book from unwanted company of those greedy ability users, people witout abilities couldnt even come close to this place anyways.

All he hears is silent for hours that Dazai starts to think he is going def. No jokes, no silly murderes toughs or no deep arguments about life and how meaningless it is. Its just quiet. And shit Dazai feels bad.

He feels bad that he even falled in the arms of a guy like Fyodor, and he even feels worse becouse he wants them to do good. Such meaningless desires. But right now all he has in mind is Odasaku.

Last night he had the most realistic dream of his life, just him and Odasaku. The feeling was so warm and cozzy that he felt like crying. He just wanted to keep Odasaku next to him and keep his attention and worries on him. Someone who acually listens to him, cares for him and loves him.

Love is such an strong word. Most people use it to express their sexual and natural incist to have sexual corse with someone and be around their hormons. But Dazai loves Odasaku. Not like that way that always ends up same.

He wants Odasaku to he comftble. He wants Odasaku to have a normal life. He wants Odasaku to stop struggling. He wants Odasaku to never kill. He wants Odasaku to be a writer. With him or witout him.

Becouse the most selfish part of him begs the universe and ever God he knows to make him end up with Odasaku, at his hause, eating those evilishly spicy curry's while taking care of these little devil kids that he has finaly grow to love just a few days before their death.

Odasaku would hate him if he could read his mind. But he doesnt. Thats why he loves Odasaku. And becouse Fyodor can read his mind, thats why he hates him.

He just wants Odasaku to be happy as much as possible.

As Dazai's toughs blurr his mind until a strong and eratating electronic buzz of the item in his ear to talk to Fyodor rudely cuts him off, and as an natural reaction Dazai snacks the thing away from himself and trows it to its death to the ground. Grouning and rubbing his ear that now rings.

"Great..." He mutters, even he is alone. Maybe he is going even crazier? But even now it sucks that he has bo help from Fyodor, this means he found The Book.

A cozy simple libary. A small room full of books with no names, no colors, no context, no words. Until his eyes catch a glimps of a out of place looking book, beightly light blue covered, a title in a forgein launguge he doesnt knows.

His fingers glide to open the book until a bright color flashs and blinds his eyes for a moment. The light is so powerfull that Dazai cna only step back, cover his eyes and groun in pain for a moment before he feels two freezing cold deathly skinny hands slowly leading his hands away from his own eyes.

Dazai's eyes widden in shock as he stares at the two arms coming out of the pages of the book before just a mouth appears on the air, the voice is so creaken and damaged that it is even hard to say whats its saying. "You want me, dont you?"

"I came here for The Book. Not an dying old man"

The thing chuckles a little, amused and lmsot relived. "I am not a man, but i guess i am old now."

Dazai frowns as he steps closer to investgate the thing going on infront of him. "Why are you so weak?"

"Why are you?"

Dazai wringles his nose, arms crossed but the little light of suprise and admirinton still in his eyes.

"The Book has an sharp tounge, huh?"

"What do you desire, Mortal?"

Straight to the point, i see.

"Can you do whatever i say?"

The Book makes an noise of amusement, a chuckle in other words, as its very much eyes close and his head like thing nods. How many eyes do this thing have?

"I have the number of eyes of every person that i ever served."

It can read me.

The young brunnets eyes widden, a look of suprise and suspicousness in his voice. "This many people used the book?"

"Indeed. If it wasnt for me, maybe you people would still be in cages living in fear like animals."

A uncontrolable suprised and amused grin forms in Dazai's face. Studiying this thing closely. It has arms, a lot of them, eyes surrendering the bally thing he has going on and a big mouth at the middle of the bally head, everything he has shines bright blue but Dazai's eyes are slowly getting used to the light.

"You see humans low of yourself."

"Why ofcourse. If you were me, you would think the same. Becouse it is true."

Dazai chuckles to himself as an childish smirk appears on his face. While The Book enjoys the change of his ruitine. First of all, finaly someone found him and there is nothing more fun to watch those humans suffer trough their wish coming true, but them never sucssesing trough what they really want. Second, this human wasnt asking for everything it got for and also was a fun piece of meat to talk to —even tho Dazai was mostly made of bones and not meat—

"Maybe you are right, maybe not. We will never know. But how about i ask you a favor first?" Dazai had tough about this before, for a long long time from the first time Miheal told him about The Book —Dazai refuses to call Miheal, Fyodor; and Fyodor, Miheal— Dazai thinked it trough all the way. He knows changing this world would never do good. He knows Fyodor's goalsnare stupid. That even in a life witout abilities the world would be unfair.
(A/TW- It is :<)

And that even with an world he summons Odasaku back. He would never be happy. Never the same. So even if it means its not with Dazai, he knows even a single world with Odasaku happy and peacefull will give him the right peace he wants and will let him die happily when the day comes.

"I want to create multible universes. As much as i need to find as much as universes where Oda Sasunosuke is happy. As much i need. I will live it all the way again if i need to. Even if it means with me or not. I want to force the universe to make a dead man happy in another world. Becouse he deserves it."

End of the chapter
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•I dont really have time to write my useal long chapters right now but i also wanted to update and now wait until i can turn this to an fully chapter so here you all go :3

•Btw i never saw anyone acually out The Book in their story. I saw them very much mentioned but it was never shown or explained. But i have big plans for this baby and also i wanted to really put an reilistic image and didnt wanted to be a pussy so here goes for my lovely readers

•I was acually planing on complating the story in here and not strech it like others but i have such an good idea that i couldnt do it 🥲

•last update, wattpad got banned from my country i cant log in witout VPN 💀