Forced to Smile

Empty

I used to be happy about living

Once upon a time, life was an adventure

I woke up excited to face the day

With a smile on my face

Bravery, innocence, joy, belief

Clustered about in my heart

I dreamt of castles and kings and dragons

Of faraway lands and buried gold

I dreamt of rivers and pyramids and tombs

And gods with eyes made of lightning

Of wizards with magical potions and spells

Powerful enough to take over the world

I had a reason to keep living

Wishing my day of adventure would soon come

But the day never came

The skies got darker and the nights were longer

The castles were raided, the gold was found

The tombs were empty and the gods were dead

There was nowhere for me to go

The dreams became nightmares

Excitement faded to a dull emptiness

And left me with nothing to grasp onto

Not a rope nor a hand nor a word

That could carry me away again

To the land of adventures and freedom

My heart and soul were empty

There was nothing but barren land

Nothing but grass forever and more

Not a star to be seen, only grey fog

A never-ending night without dawn

That wrapped my world in silence

There is no adventure to be found

I no longer dream of pirate plunders

Or faeries with silvery wings

There is nothing I wish to do anymore

No reason for me to continue on

I can fight and scream and kick

But no one can hear me

I am stuck here for eternity

The barren empty field of grass

Holds me hostage with despair

Whatever I do in the rest of my life

Will account for little or nothing

Always forgotten in fourth place

No one will remember my name

Pointless, worthless, meaningless

That's all I can truly be

In the end, the only true adventure

Waits in the black arms of Death