I feel really dizzy, and the crowded rooms aren't really helping on that matter. I want to go home.
It doesn't take me too long to find Tyler, he's standing alone in the doorway to the living room, leaned against the doorframe.
"There you are" I say almost hyperventilating, before handing him not only the one drink, but both, "I think im leaving. I don't feel too good" I say, not meeting his eyes.
"Hey, hey, hey, calm down" he says, grabbing my shoulders, "we just got here, what's the matter?"
I feel his glare almost burning into me, as if he's trying to read my mind or something.
While trying to control my breath I continue, "I don't feel good. I just, I just really need some air. I can't breathe."
Tyler suddenly grabs my arm and leads me through the crowds and outside. He's still holding my hand when we walk down the stairs on the side of the building.
He leads me behind the motor shop.
"Okay, now really. What's the matter?" He says, leaning against a wall, I swear he's always leaning on something.
The alcohol definitely had a negative effect on me this time. And with the realisation that me and Tyler might not just be friends it all becomes overwhelming.
"I... I don't know." I need a lie. I really need a lie right now. Come on!!!
"I'm not in love with Stephen anymore."
Not the kind of lie I was expecting.
Of course I love Stephen!! Why am I such a fool?!
"What, really?"
Come on don't make this more complicated.
"No. I don't. And it's bugging me, cause he's my boyfriend, and I'm supposed to love him and-" I feel tears running down my cheeks. "My head is pounding really bad, and I can't breathe and I honestly feel terrible-"
I'm interrupted by a kiss.
Tyler Thornes is kissing me.
Ive never kissed anyone with smoother lips than I am right now not even Stephen. His lips truly feel like silk as they press against mine.
I put my arms around his neck. I'm not sure how our conversation ended like this, but it definitely helps as a painkiller.
I feel his arms making his way around my waist. Adrenaline rushes throughout me.
A thought throws me off, he's probably only kissing me because I said I don't love Stephen. But I do. I do love Stephen.
When I suddenly pull back, I can almost smell the confusion in Tyler.
"I'm really sorry Tyler. But I can't do this right now."
I wipe my lips and as soon as I turn around, tears are flowing down my face again.
And so I do what I promised myself not to do against him again, run away.
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I've been walking drowned in my own thoughts for a good 10 minutes when I hear a loved voice from behind.
"Lillian? Is that you?"
Daisy.
I turn around towards her, revealing my fucked up face and makeup.
"Oh my god, are you okay?"
Again, the tears come. It's impressive I still have tears left to be honest.
Daisy runs up to me. She looks better than ever, her hair is curled and she's wearing a gorgeous pink float dress, her makeup perfect. Of course.
"Lillian... tell me what happened please." She says, gently stroking my shoulders.
"I cheated on Stephen. I cheated on Stephen because I'm stupid enough to fall in love with another guy. But I love Stephen! I adore him. And I'm such a shitty person. And I just want to die." I say, burrowing my face in my hands. Hoping that in some way, I might just disappear into my palms.
"Oh dear. Lillian you're drunk. I don't want you to go back to an empty house. Please come with me. Stay the night." Daisy says as she pulls me in, rubbing my back.
"Alright?" She says.
"Alright."
Writers note:
Heyyy, anyways sorry for not updating in a few days, I'm having a minor writers block🙈
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An unpredictable summer- ONGOING
RomanceAfter years filled with comfort and warmth, Lillian Roberts has eventually grown tired of her quiet life she is longing for something unknown. Her longing finally comes to an end when a new boy moves to town. She's drawn by the unfamiliarity and str...
