𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐁 𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈-𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 ━━ remus lupin x male!oc

Chapter 17

THE BOYS WAVED OFF JAMES, SENDING THEM THEIR BEST PITIFUL LOOKS hoping that this wouldn't end up breaking his heart like they had seen many times before. James quietly walked beside Seohyun, contemplating his entire life over and over again. Every step he took made his mind dizzy, every thought taking up another small space inside his head till he felt like he was going to explode. His breathing had quickened, the dizziness making it hard for him to even realise whether or not he was walking in a straight direction.

Seohyun led them to a deserted class. The second his the door had closed shut James wasn't quite sure if his hard had sank or if that was his imagination. His nerves racked all over his body, he was quite certain they would jump out of his skin. Everything was too loud, his own heart was too loud and his mind was clouded by something he couldn't even see. James was freaked out of his mind. Quite frankly, James wasn't sure if he had a mind of his own anymore. Seohyun had been clogging up all of the extra space in his brain.

"James?" The boy quietly spoke snapping the boy out of his own mind. The boy stammered something out before he was able to quietly muster the word 'yeah?'. There was a silence that engulfed their conversation, the feeling of uncertainty filling their veins as they looked at each other. Neither of them knew what to say forcing them to keep the deafening silence alive.

They locked eyes and if James were a poet he would have dedicated his life to writing about how mesmerising the eyes were he been captured in.

James was caught up in his own mind feeling obligated to find the answer himself. "It's fine if you want to call things off-" James started off but the older brother quickly cut him off eyes wide with surprise. "Call things off? What?" Seohyun butted in absolutely astonished that James would ever dare of calling it quits. Well, call whatever they had quits.

"No!" The older one spoke once again, feeling shock run through him once again. His heartbeat sped up and it felt like his heart was in his throat, holding every thought he could back and keeping it inside his lungs. "I- I.." The words stammered out of his mouth, his mind still trying to word out the thoughts he was having.

James looked up at Seohyun, unsure if he was hoping for things to end or for the older boy to kiss him to his death. Seohyun urged forwards and his hands wrapping nicely around James his hands which in comparison looked a lot smaller. "I, I really like you James. And- I don't understand my emotions, I've never liked anyone like I have liked you before!" Seohyun explained frantically, his breath scattered like his mind was. There was only one thought that was clear in his head: do not lose James.

James his eyes softened, glancing down at the hands before locking eyes with the boy of his dreams. "Seohyun.." The boy whispered gently but Seohyun seemed to have a worry in his eyes and once again cut him off.

"No- I need you to hear me out!" Seohyun begged. He breathed out heavily, his eyes pleading. "I never understood why people dwell on romance so hard until I met you. You- ever since last year I felt the urge to be better around you because I wanted to impress you! I never understood why- I thought I was weird, and then at the showers I realised.." There was a small pause, Seohyun inhaling again. "I am infatuated with you, every move you have ever done I've replayed in my mind at least twice!"

James stared up at him, his heart on the verge of jumping out of his ribcage. His cheeks were fiery red and he felt the entirety of his body heat up.

"James Potter, I don't want whatever we had to end. I want stuff to grow, I want to do so much more. You are the only one who has ever made me experience love, I'm not finished with experiencing it with you yet." Seohyun spoke finishing his last words with a desperate whisper. Their foreheads were almost touching, Seohyun his breath was softly tickling against James his lips making it desirable to smash them against one another.