𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐁 𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈-𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 ━━ remus lupin x male!oc

Chapter 19

REGULUS BREATHED OUT HEAVILY AS HE FINISHED WRITING DOWN THE LAST GOODBYES he would ever articulate to a person honoured enough to be apart of the noble house of Black or associate with them like many of his acquaintances and 'friends'. He truly wondered how his life would change and how it had under the course of knowing Jaehyun Ryu. If he never met the lonely boy in the midst of September and somehow befriended him Regulus wasn't sure if he would be as socially intelligent as Jaehyun had made him.

He would forever be grateful for Jaehyun because the scrawny muggleborn had indeed shown him a form of magic no elite could ever try and show him with the tips of their wands. Love, there was such a deep love for Jaehyun penetrated in the depths of his heart and at times he might had confused himself with a queer. Regulus knew he wasn't because the idea of having intimate intercourse with the guy he called his closest disgusted him.

Not even a kiss on the lips seemed appealing to him, though he knew Jaehyun seemed the type to fall deep in love with a guy. He never admitted it to his friend that he did in fact see him kissing a boy, Regulus mentally noted that he would wait for Jaehyun to come out himself. The thought of bargaining his friend into being uncomfortable about his sexuality seemed heartbreaking. Regulus wanted to be better than his parents could ever have been.

Dearest family,

However you might find this decision abrupt I have been planning this concept in my mind for the past year. I have decided I do not want to become an heir to a household like yours.

I do not follow the same views upon half bloods and muggleborns as you may wish. In fact I have duly fallen in love with a muggleborn student whom I shall not name because I do not trust you with that information. I will say that he is a wonderful person, a boy.

Much to your dismay I will end the somber Black family line because I shall never mate with a female, never had it appealed me and I know why now. I am everything you despise and more, I have fallen into the norms of queerness and am in love with a boy of muggleborn descent. I shall not choose to be unhappy for the sake of a family line who I have never respected.

I do not have any condolences I wish for you to receive, you shall not be needing to expect me at Christmas or any other gathering ever again.

Your youngest, Regulus Arcturus

With a heavy heart on his stomach he hoped his parents wouldn't fume into the midst and send one of the death eaters their direction. He could not bear the feeling of knowing he was the reason one of his closest got hurt, he cared far too much about Jaehyun for such to happen. He would fight his own blood if it meant securing the safety of Jaehyun, he never understood why muggle books always spoke about how powerful the emotions of love are until it started blooming into his own life. He didn't think there would ever be words to describe how much gratitude he had for the boy who had entered his sorrowful life. Regulus let the letter fly away in the air as his gifted owl soon made its way out of his dorm.

Awaiting the agonising words of disappointment and judgement from his parents he decided to go out for a walk to clear his headspace whilst he awaited his disownment.

He decided he would head down for a stroll through the corridors, knowing they would likely be empty at this hours relieved him as he did not look forward for anymore fake sweet talk to Lucius Malfoy. He had always found Lucius a bit snobby and self centred. He acted as if he could be held at the same standard as Regulus because simply, he was marrying into the family. Everyone and their lovers knew that there was not a single person except the ones whom prayed to that could stand above the Noble House Of Black.

Quite frankly, that was the reason he enjoyed being disowned so much. He was ruining a reputation of all the people before him, the family that tarnished the sensation of love for many of those who came before him. It was a sort of bittersweet revenge he was taking for all those who had lived a life like his but to their very ends. Questioning if this lifestyle was truly meant for him, pondering why he was taught he was superior to people who bled the same blood and shed the same emotions.

He made his way down the flight of stairs, not bothering of giving Lucius the satisfaction of nodding back at him, which he often prided himself for. Savouring the so called honour he had of being acquainted with the family of Black.

"He simply must not have seen me." Was what Lucius said in the corner of the room to Avery Mulciber. Regulus in fact, did see his outrageous face which seemed almost porcelain. Likely because looks were sought after. Regulus decided to not comment on that fact and just left the dormitory. The halls were quiet, his mind immediately raced back to Jaehyun.

Where was he?

Not to insult Jaehyun but Regulus was quite sure he didn't have a lot of friends. In fact, he was certain that the only ones he had the courage of talking to by himself were Regulus himself, Remus and James. He let out a small sigh, his mind felt exhausted. He felt as if a Dementor had swept his way inside of his dorm and sucked out all the energy he had. In a way he was sad, he didn't know why. He knew his parents cared for him in a certain way, they just never showed it. Though at times he was unsure whether it was respect or nurturing.

Somehow deep inside of his heart he felt a small piece of his heart crumble under the weight of knowing his family would forever feel disgust towards him. He felt disgusted towards his family yet he never thought it would pain him this much knowing they felt the same way towards him.

Not the biggest surprise but he somehow had not expected it, he saw Remus and Jaehyun. At least he was correct about the two other possibilities. He wouldn't admit it but he knew his lips twitched upwards at the sight of the smile that was drawn onto his friend his lips. Though his brows did narrow at the faint blush that was coating Jaehyun his cheeks.

Jaehyun was talking to Remus about crocheting, an unusual topic that had came up out of the blue. "You know, it would be so easy to be able to make my own socks!" He explained with excitement teasing out of his tone. Remus wasn't even sure what his obsession with socks was, he knew Jaehyun had really pretty eyes. Gorgeous even. He swore that they cast a spell on him to create this trance making sure he was attracted to them. He usually hated making eye contact, but at this moment he didn't mind it.

"You have a weird liking towards socks." Remus commented with an amused grin. Regulus watched from a few meters away, clearly the two were oblivious to his obvious staring. Remus might not notice how he was staring at Jaehyun, but Regulus did. The boy stared as if he had found his other half, the person who made him whole. He stared as if Jaehyun had handpicked the most beautiful stars and gifted them to him for no reason. The look of love.

One Regulus had never been too familiar with, as if love was an extra he could lack. Love was this beautiful feeling that couldn't escape the grasp of the human nature until it had came across his family. Love skipped his family. But that was alright because Jaehyun had entered his life and filled the whole of lacked emotion and filled it till it could explode.

Maybe that was Jaehyun his cause for existence. He was love, he spread love, he created love for those who were inexperienced. One look and you immediately knew that Remus was in-love. No words could describe the spark that faintly illuminating from the depth of his brown eyes.

Regulus wanted to go up to Jaehyun and rant about his emotions he was boiling deep inside his mind about how this feeling towards his parents were something unnamed, but he didn't. Jaehyun deserved love, he deserved getting back what he had given the world. He simply smiled at the sight and walked the other way.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Hey lovelies !! It had been ages, I know, I deeply apologise for that. I hope this chapter is decent, school has made me so incredibly busy I don't even know how to explain it.

Update for any of those who care, I have gotten a boyfriend aswel !! So that also has occupied most of my time.

Anyways, goodbye, hopefully the next update will not take too long <3