Work was over for the day & the weekend was finally here. Even though my friends were begging me to go, I honestly had no interest of going clubbing tonight. Today was a hectic day & I could that having to deal with the chaotic traffic caused by the thousand of tourists that flood Albufeira in the Summer time took away part of my soul little by little. I have been working in the reservations department of a hotel and even though I don't absolutely hate the job I feel she felt like something is missing. I've been feeling this way for a long time. On top of that, the pay check surely isn't enough for the personal goals I have stored in the back of my brain. I tried not to think about this that much, it feels more like a utopia every passing day. The truth is - I have always been a creative girl, I am very passionate about art in general and a 9-5 just doesn't do it for me. My family always discouraged me with the non-sense argument that art didn't "pay well". Well, at least if I was doing something that I actually enjoyed, I would feel a bit more fulfilled by now. When it was time to go to university I chose Tourism, seemed like it was easy enough. I can tell my family regrets not letting me pursue my passion, although they now understand was a mistake thinking about this major block still leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. I parked my car trying to brush the thoughts of how my life could have been if I had followed fine art or graphic design, the second would have been less risky. I have been feeling particularly discouraged lately. My friends, specially Gabi, my best friend knew this, I have the tendency of isolating myself and get into an introspective mode whenever something is bothering me. The life of a Pisces woman, I guess. At least that's what Gabi kept telling me. That's why she was being so pushy about me going out tonight. I locked the door behind me & as soon as I hang my purse my phone rings.
"Hey" I picked up the phone with a not so excited tone knowing it'd be my best friend insisting for me to leave my comfortable enclosure.
"Claudia, you have to come tonight. It's not everyday that you get such a good DJ & you need to stop being the boring ass old lady you've been these past two weeks" Gabi said in a rather demanding tone.
Maybe Gabi was right, maybe it is time to stop doing the gym-work-home routine every day. I knew she always meant well and I also acknowledged how my tendency of ghosting the world could be rather auto-destructive.
