What Rafael had done woke up memories in me that I wish would never come to my head ever again. Deep down I knew that forgetting about it all together was basically unachievable. You may forget the existence of some scars every now and then but they never leave your skin. Not a lot of people knew what I had gone through and I intended to keep it that way. I didn't want people to perceive me as weak, no one needed to know.
I leaned my head against Jude's chest once he pulled away from the kiss. I was aware that I was being much more vulnerable that I'd like to but somehow he made me feel safe and that's all I needed right now. There was no one I'd rather be with, I knew no one's company would match his at this moment. Tonight I was going to allow myself to just free fall, I could activate the parachute tomorrow. I closed my eyes for a second in an attempt to get rid of the anxiety I was feeling. He respected my time and stayed silent for a moment just holding me close.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Jude asked in a soft tone.
I shook my head "There's nothing to talk about. I just didn't like his attitude, it wasn't right" I said, my tone matching his.
"Claudia, you disassociated completely. I don't think it's nothing. I know that our situation is, well, particular but you can trust me." Jude said, I could feel his gaze on me but I was unable to face him right now. If he only knew...he would never have the same respect for me ever again.
