Tied With A Ribbon

Chapter 8

⚠️! BULLYING, LANGUAGE, FATSHAMING, ED MENTION'⚠️
^please read at own risk^
Carly POV:

It feels like years since I sent that message to my mom. A million thoughts are telling me to delete it and tell her everything is okay.

Telling me not to burden her.

But something else told me everything would change, Emily would stop bullying me. That everyone would stop bullying me.

*ping*

That pulls me out if my thoughts.

I'm just hoping it's not Emily or someone in her group. Or I'm in a world of trouble.

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Mum ❤️

I'll email the headteacher again. When you feel safer and better to go back to school, immediately go to his office, and show him the screenshots.

Alrighty 👍🏼
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I stare at the message, with one word jumping out at me.

Again.

We shouldn't have to say 'again'. This should have been dealt with the first time it was brought up. Second time at most.

The fact that she didn't get reprimanded for it? After it was continuously brought up for the last three years? Pathetic.

I have one more year until I graduate, I don't want to feel scared to go to school. I want to feel safe, or happy. I want to feel like everything is okay.

*ping*

My phone again?

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555-555-5555

Carly we know you're not sick. Are you being a pu$$y and not coming to school? Are you a scaredy cat?

Ugly scaredy cat, too scared to come to school over some little jokes. Grow up, you baby.

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Ugly.
Scaredy Cat.
Baby.
Fat.
Pu$$y
...
Joke?

It's okay if it's a joke though, right? A joke means she doesn't mean it. But jokes are meant to be funny.

Am I that funny that I'm seen as a walking talking joke?

It's not a joke. She's trying to hurt me, and it worked. I let her get the best of me and hurt me.

Or is she telling me as a joke so it opens my eyes, and let's me see what I need to change?

She opened my eyes.
She's hurting me.
Opened my eyes
Hurting me.

I can't tell now. I just want to forget about this for a bit. I'll just go on my phone.

I grab my phone and it immediately shows my lock screen.

1:32pm

I missed lunch.

But I guess missing meals isn't gonna hurt? Although I am really hungry. Replacing food intake with water will reduce that right?

...

Right?

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As Carly's hunger ks causing her stomach to growl,
Emily is starting to prowl.

The not eating won't support her for long,
Poor carly, our walking, talking, ticking time bomb
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(A/N: 1: I apologize for my posting being less than usual, I have been super busy

2: if anyone is going through something like this, YOU AREN'T ALONE! Some of the things I wrote so far are personal experiences mixed with things we know from Carly's past! I've been through it and I can definitely help you! My dms are open for anyone who needs some guidance or just needs to talk.

  (I'm not asking for sympathy I just want people to     know that they aren't alone!)