Big, Little and Tiny Sef <3

Nerves.

Yusuf's POV:

Asher was being weird. He's always being weird, but it was the opposite of before. He practically had an invisible ten foot pole between us the entire weekend. It made me miss when he wouldn't leave me alone.

"What's up?" I asked, opening his bedroom door and finding him lay on his bed.

"Nothing."

"Something has to be wrong. You're not talking to anyone. Have I done something? Or Youssef or Nathan?"

"No."

"Has someone else done something? Do I need to punch anyone?"

"Don't go around punching people. It's not a good look. Hurts like hell too."

"Who would I be punching?"

"Me. I'm sorry for everything, when I left. I wanted to bring you but Ethan's brother's place was disgusting. Bunch of men and dirty shit everywhere. I thought you'd be better off with Dad, less scary if you can believe it."

"You did what you did. I would've left. I tried to, just had nobody to go to. The police took me back because Jace's dad told them I'd run away."

"You deserved someone better. A better dad, or brother. I wanted to come back but every time I'd try I'd see Dad and I would run. I didn't know what would happen if he saw me again, if he'd hurt me."

"It's alright. He won't hurt Yas, so I just carried her everywhere."

Asher sighed.

"Dad's a dick. You know that? There's no changing him or waiting it out. We waited four years for him to get over Momma getting cancer and he never did. We waited our whole lives for him to get his act together. He never did. We're better off here, or at least not there." I spoke, holding Asher's arm so he'd look at me.

"You deserve a good dad. Even if it's Farouk, or Ajayi. They love you, so so much."

"I love them too. I don't need a dad. I've got you. You're back, hm? We can look after each other."

"We don't have to protect ourselves anymore. Youssef and Nathan want to do that. They want to love on you and shit."

"We're not staying though. The whole point is this is temporary, and we will be back with Dad in a few months. Reunification is the goal." I shrugged, trying not to look at him. I'd spoken to Stella about this, and she said that I might not stay.

Asher stared at me like I'd just broken a promise on Momma.

"It's true. I want to stay, but we can't."

"What's going to happen when you go all baby then? Is dad going to put cartoons on and give you a drink and your blanket? Will dad get Momma so you can rub your nose on her heart? Do you expect dad to even understand what's going on?! He'll be drunk out of his mind, or beating the shit out of you for acting like that!" Asher shouted, pulling at my shirt so I could feel the drops of spit from his fury.

I didn't reply, not because he had scared me, because he was right. I didn't want to think about that.

Nathan came upstairs and asked what was wrong, and Asher burst into tears. That scared me. He never cries. Hardly ever. I moved so Nathan could figure everything out and make it better. I went downstairs because I didn't want to get in trouble for making him upset.