𝑻𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 ~𝓙𝓸𝓱𝓷𝓷𝓲𝓮 𝓖𝓾𝓲𝓵𝓫𝓮𝓻𝓽 𝓧 𝓨/𝓷~

Feel me.

Y/N'S POV:

Men are so complicated. I hear a buzz come from my phone and I see a message from Johnnie. 'I'm sorry' I read. Does he really think i'm gonna forgive him that easily? Something similar to this has happened before. I'm gonna tease him a little. "Tara" I whisper to her.
She looks at me, I show her the message Johnnie sent and I tell her how i'm not forgiving him easily.

I forgot Valerie was here until she speaks "So leave us alone, Johnnie come on." I watch Johnnie before he lets out a sigh "Fine i'll come." Johnnie says while me Jake, and Tara are shocked. We all watch as Johnnie walks upstairs with Valerie. "Who the fuck does he think he is?" Tara exclaims. Jake just looks disappointed while i'm just here.

I don't even know how to react. Am I supposed to be sad, happy, mad, scared, or worried? Which emotion am I even supposed to feel right now? I can't even feel anything. Is it pain? I feel like I'm nothing. I feel like I shouldn't even be here right now. I should be by myself exploring LA. How did i end up in this fucking situation.

"Y/n we aren't just gonna let him do that to you. We won't let him play you." Jake says, I can tell he feels sorry. I feel..I don't know how I feel. I feel sorry for myself. I think i'm feeling upset. Because why am I letting a boy do this to me?

I can't get mad at Johnnie, I believe in second chances. Plus it's his first time living to, he's obviously not gonna be perfect. Even though he seems so damn perfect. He's human to so he's obviously gonna make a lot of mistakes in his life. Even if they are the worst mistakes to even be known.

"I can try and text him again." Jake says. I love Jake but I can't let him speak for me. I should be dealing with this with my words, no one else's words. "Thanks for offering Jake but I think if I said something to him face to face, things could work out." I say. Tara nods but she still looks mad, mad for me. I stand up and head towards the stairs. As i'm making my way up the stairs, I can hear laughter. I can sense Valerie's happiness. I wish I were Valerie.

I am now standing outside Johnnie's door, hesitating if I should knock on it. Fuck it. I knock on the door and I hear loud ass stomps come my way. Valerie opens the door. "Y/n were a little busy can you go away for a bit plea-" Val says with an attitude but gets cut off by me because i'm literally a fucking girl boss. "I'm not actually here for you Valerie. I just need to say something to Johnnie." I say loudly enough for him to hear. I look behind her and see him stand up. "Well he doesn't wanna talk to you right now so go." She says. This is what was happening to me. Other people were talking for me instead of me talking for myself. But instead Valerie's talking for Johnnie and he's not talking for himself.

"Did he tell you that? Stop trying to speak for him Valerie. He can speak for himself." I say. Of course I had to say the words in my mind because i'm always right. "Y/n I think it's best if you just leave." Johnnie says. Wow. I'm in genuine shock, I don't even believe those words came out of Johnnie Guilbert's mouth. The guy who everyone loves so much and sees him a the kindest person in the fucking world.

"You don't say that when we're alone in each others arms Johnnie. How come all of a sudden she appears and you became a brand new person?" I exclaim. He just stares at me, it looks like he's questioning himself in his mind. This bitch should be questioning himself for acting so immature. But I do forgive him because I just see this as an act. I'll always forgive this man, he could say the worst stuff to me and I would just forget about it. I'd keep every bad thing about him locked up in the back of my mind so I could never think of the negative about him.

"Y/n...I'm so-" I cut him off by grabbing his face and smashing his lips onto mine. He grabs my waist while I slide my hands down to his neck. I want him to feel my lips. I want him to know i'm the only bitch who will treat him right. I want him to understand he's mine. I want the whole world to know that he's mine and nothing can stop that from happening. I slowly pull away. I start and end the kiss. He just looks at me.

"I'm sorry." Comes out his mouth. Yeah he should be sorry.
"I can tell" I reply. Just by looking at his beautiful ocean eyes, I can tell he's sorry.
I grab Johnnie's hand and bring him downstairs while Valerie just follows behind like a dog. Valerie's yapping and complaining about something while she's following us. I don't know what she saying, I don't wanna know and I don't care.

I turn around and speak "Val I think it's time you go." I point to the door. She looks at me in disgust. Johnnie grabs her arm and starts taking her to the door while she's just screaming. "Y/n I swear to god I wish I never even met yo-" The door shut. Now all I can hear is just muffled words. What do we even do know? Should I just put this all behind me?

"Y/n i'm sorry. I've been treating you like the shittiest person ever and i'm so sorry for doing that. You don't deserve any of this and I just feel terrible for doing all this to you." Johnnie says. I just smile at him and hug him.
"Johnnie I forgive you. I know you don't mean any of that bullshit." I say

He lets go of the hug and we both just turn to face Jake and Tara. To be honest I forgot they were even here, no offense to them or anything. I see a smile form on their faces.
"Awww" Tara and Jake both say in sync.
"It's so cute when Johnnie actually feels sorry." Jake says like a proud mom.
Tara speaks "Well you were just acting like a dumbass Johnnie. I wasn't going to forgive you buy Y/n does." Tara giggles.

Jake nods in agreement with Tara and Johnnie just scratched the back of his head. I feel exhausted after all this and a lot of time has passed by. I usually go to bed around two in the morning but right now it's eleven at night and I feel so tired. I can't drive and Tara's most likely to tired to drive us to her house.

"Tara are you gonna drive us home?" I ask. I notice Johnnie looks sad after I say that. "Why don't we just spend the night here!" Tara says. I agree but I don't have any pajamas but Tara came with hers on. "I don't have any pajamas though" I say.
"You can borrow mine." Johnnie says quickly, it seems like he wants me to stay the night. He goes up to his room and comes back downstairs with his pajama pants and one of his shirts. "Thank you Johnnie, i'll go get dressed." I say but before I head to the bathroom, I peck a kiss on Johnnie's cheek then walk away to the bathroom.

JOHNNIE'S POV:

Did she just to that to me? Like it was a normal thing to do. I love Y/n, she's not scared to express now she feels. I kind of wish we were a thing. Maybe I should ask her out soon.

ENDS HERE:_____________________________________
Here's a long chapter for y'all since I haven't published anything
in a LONG time 😭 Y/n was pretty sassy in this chapter lol. Sorry 4
not publishing a chapter in a while but i'm backkkkk!! Anyway...
I LOVE YALL AND THANK YOU 4 READING MY BOOKKK 🖤🖤🖤

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