Yoongi takes a step back, he blinks and walks towards the railing. He inhales the fresh air as if it were lacking in his body, as if he couldn't do without it.
Jimin thinks he fucked up, he thinks he shouldn't have asked that. What was he expecting? He felt his heart shattering and he couldn't move.
The way Yoongi walked away from him, it hurt. What a fool, he thought.
He stayed there, leaning against the wall, looking at Yoongi.
Yoongi looks back at him, he gulps. He takes a deep breath and walks towards him. He holds Jimin's hand, they were so soft, almost melted in Yoongi's big ones. "Sit with me" he says.
Jimin presses his lips in a thin line, following Yoongi to the seating.
They sit next to each other, awkwardly, not daring to meet eyes.
Things suddenly went awkward between them. Before silence took over, Yoongi spoke, "it's crazy..." He swallows, "how this-" he exhales, "all this" he looks at Jimin.
Jimin stares into the space and it makes Yoongi's insides churn, Jimin didn't look very good and it hurt him.
"We've been bestfriends Yoongi" Jimin spoke. He looks at Yoongi.
"We have" Yoongi nods.
"I'm worried this might ruin it for us" Jimin says, "our friendship"
Yoongi opens his mouth but closes it back again. He has nothing to say, it was true.
"I'm sorry" Yoongi sighs. "It's all my fault. I-I shouldn't hav-"
"I'm equally at fault here" Jimin says, "we're both just stupid" he looks at Yoongi's hand on his side, he moves to touch their pinkys together. Yoongi looks down at their hands.
Without much thinking he places his hand on top on Jimin's, pressing tightly.
"We should stop this" Jimin's words come out shaky. "I love our friendship more than anything else Yoongi" he says, staring into Yoongi's soul.
Yoongi's grip on Jimin's hand slowly releases. His breath hitches, almost stops for a second.
He wanted to speak, wanted to say it all out, tell him that he always felt something more for the younger. That he always will and he wasn't able to hold these feelings back anymore.
"I do too" he ends up saying.
"I fear, we may end up growing apart if we continue this" Jimin says and Yoongi nods.
Yoongi grimaces as he looks away. He scoffs, "I think I was out of my mind"
"I think I'm always out of my mind when I'm with you" Jimin chuckles as he falls down on his back. Yoongi looks at him and smiles. Jimin looks serene with his relaxed features, Yoongi has always liked seeing him like this. His brown strands falling over his eyes, and his pink lips parted slightly.
Oh boy! Yoongi was a goner.
"But damn you're such a filthy kisser" Jimin says.
"I told you, I can do both" Yoongi laughs.
....
Yoongi had avoided texting or calling for two weeks now. He thought he could handle it, that he was already doing so well all these years but no, it was different now. He couldn't.
Everytime Jimin called, Yoongi left it unanswered because what was he going to talk anyway?
It kinda pissed Jimin off. So he stopped texting or calling then.
Yoongi was sitting on the couch with his head falling back. Seokjin took out two beer cans out of his fridge and came to sit next to Yoongi.
"I can't believe you are telling me all this now" Seokjin opens the can, handing it to Yoongi.
Yoongi grimaces as he takes the can, "I cant believe I got myself into this"
Seokjin scoffs, "ofcourse you did, you wanted it since like forever"
"Not this though" Yoongi says, "it's ruined now, I thought maybe just maybe he felt something for me too, I could feel it the way he kisses me, ughh" Yoongi whines. "I fucking like him so much, I never wanted to just hook up with him, ugh, should've told him that" he gulps down a big sip.
"Relax Yoongi, Maybe he just does not see you like that" Seokjin says, relaxing back on the couch.
"Sure, it's really helping right now" Yoongi rolls his eyes.
Seokjin laughs, "ofcourse I'm kidding"
"No but" Yoongi falls back, "he probably doesn't" he sighs, "because why would he ask that otherwise yeah? And for obvious reasons he mentioned friendship over anything and everything else"
A few more cans down and Yoongi was pouting, "but I really made sure not to get into that shit with him" he whines, "I've been careful all this time but ugh...how did this happen"
"You're a fool Yoongi, a literal fool" Seokjin snaps, "you could have just said him that you're in love, you fool"
Yoongi frowns, "love?" He laughs, "I'm not in love"
"You've always been in love Yoongi" he slaps Yoongi's back.
Yoongi opens his mouth to deny but closes it back, frowning when his phone rings.
"Oh?" He looks at his phone, "it's Jimin"
"Pick it up, quickly" Seokjin said.
"No, I am not" Yoongi turns his phone around.
Seokjin frowns, "why?" He asks, gulping down his beer.
"I don't know what to say?" Yoongi says.
"Just pick it up and check what he has to say Yoongi" Seokjin hands him the phone in hurry.
"Wha-" he frowns, "no-"
"Hello" a soft voices speaks.
"Hey" Yoongi clears his throat.
"Uh-hi hyung" Jimin's tone was softer than usual. "Hi Jimin" he replies.
"Um..are you free right now?" Jimin asks
Yoongi turns to look at Seokjin who was already looking at him.
"Uh, actually I'm with Seokjin hyung right now" he says.
Seokjin frowns, he walks towards Yoongi, "put it on speaker" he mumbles.
Yoongi nods and puts it on speaker.
"Oh, okay" Jimin's voice sounds upset, Yoongi could guess.
"I..uh I actually wanted to see you" Jimin says.
"Why?" Yoongi asks, getting a punch from the elder in his back. He pouts.
"Nothing..just" there's silence on the call as Yoongi waits for Jimin to speak, he knows he will. "Can I not meet you?" He asks, "aren't you done avoiding me now?" He asks.
Usually Jimin's rage could be palpable in his voice but right now he was calm. He asked it all so softly. Yoongi was surprised.
"I-I uh, wasn't avoidi-" Jimin breaks him before he could complete, "it's fine, I won't call again then" Jimin says.
"Um hey, no, I didn't-" Yoongi stutters, "where are you?" He asks.
"Oval park" Jimin says.
Yoongi hears it and something aches within him. A memory not so fond, hit him. He hates thinking about it. Yet there he was, running to see Jimin.
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