Alexander (Grimm) - Crossover AU

Chapter 21

You have a general understanding of how Alexander thinks. 

The both of you have been pretty forward about your relationship. So it's no surprise when he drops by the precinct when you're working late. Nor is it strange when you meet him at his office to drag him away from those constant piles of paperwork.

It's nice to have that person that keeps you grounded. You're both very passionate about your jobs. You want to help as many people as you can while you can, and Alexander wants to make the world safe for those people to live in.

More than anything you're lucky.

That's why that particular night as you were comfortable on his couch, you saw no reason to beat around the bush concerning your little problem. He should know you well enough by now to understand that you're a blunt person.

"Can we have sex."

The paper in his hand dropped and he just stared at you, obviously bewildered. You didn't miss the way he adjusted himself in the seat, or clenched his fist at his side. The careful way his eyes study you. Everything about his body language suggests that he wants to.

Desperately.

But he's been holding back.

When he gathered himself, he just chuckled, reaching over and picking up the document. When he straightened he placed it on the table.

"You're as forward as ever (Y/N)."

He tries to look cool and collected but you can spot it from a mile away.

"I was just curious about why we haven't. I want to, and I can tell that you do too. So what's stopping us?"

You really just want to understand. There must be a reason and you hope that he trusts you enough to confide in you. Lean on you. You have a general idea of what it could be, but you want to hear it from him.

He loosens his tie and you track every small action.

"I apologize, it's not my intention to make you worry. I assure you it has nothing to do with you."

"Whatever it is, you can tell me."

Alexander swallows.

"It's..a bit complicated."

"You're afraid to be intimate with me because you're not sure you'll be able to stay in control and you're worried that you'll hurt me."

From his dumbfounded expression you hit the nail on the head. With a sigh, you move closer, taking his hand.

"Alex, don't you think that I've considered all of that. You won't hurt me. I'm sure of it. You don't have to be afraid."

"I understand why you would have so much faith in me but I can't guarantee that. If I were to hurt you then it would.." He doesn't finish the sentence. You can guess what's running through his mind. You give his hand a squeeze.

"Okay, then until you're comfortable, we don't have to. Alright. Don't worry about it. Just in the future please come to me. I want to help you, isn't that the deal?"

He'd initially requested your help for professional gain, the last thing he expected was for this all to become so personal. But he can't complain about the outcome.

"You're right, I apologize."

He pressed a kiss to your hand and you grin, practically jumping into his lap. He laughed, wrapping his arms around your body as you leaned your back against his chest. Alexander left another kiss on your cheek.

You could certainly get used to this.