frenemies | b.e.

s e v e n t e e n

- b i l l i e -
1 month later...

"So your album has been out a week already. How do you feel?"

"It's crazy, it's getting so much attention and I'm so happy because I'm really proud of it. Like, that bitch is my baby." I laugh.

"I'm sure it is." The interviewer chuckles. "Onto another subject, fans have lots of questions about you and a girl that you've posted quite a few times on your Instagram story. Wanna comment on that?"

"Just my good friend." I answer. "Anybody special in your life recently?" She asks.

"No."

I wish.

"I mean, there is a girl, she just doesn't want me." I shrug. "I'm sure she does." The woman smiles softly.

But she doesn't.

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"You okay, Bil? You seem down."

"I'm fine." I tell my mom as we pull in the driveway. "What is it, sweetheart? I know something's upsetting you."

"Don't worry about it." I sigh and get out of the car. I tell her I love her before going upstairs to my room and locking the door. I take my shoes off and lay down on my bed, letting out a groan.

Amara still has me fucked up. I'm losing my mind over her.

I hate how I care so much about someone who doesn't care about me.

I wish she liked me.

But we're back to normal. I mean, at least she is. She's so confusing.

I have no idea what to do.

I think I really want her and I thought she wanted me too.

I've been doing really bad lately because of this. I'm trying to be happy, but it's so hard.

And Amara doesn't know I'm not clean again. I doubt she'd care anyways.

It was sweet while it all lasted when she took care of me.

I wish things could be different.

I grab my phone and go to Amara's contact.

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iMessage

amara simpson

can we talk?

why

please?

it's no use billie

amara please

i really wanna talk

i don't get why you keep trying

i told you, you and i just aren't meant
to be like that

we haven't talked in almost a month amara