Tangled Love

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Aditya's pov

Hate. That's what I am feeling for myself after getting to know that Akshita was forced to marry me. Her dream was shattered and parents took advantage of her situation by forcing her into this marriage. She was broken yet she performed all her duties of wife and daughter-in-law effortlessly.

Whereas me who liked Akshita at the first sight itself didn't put an ounce of effort in this relationship. I was so drowned in my past that I couldn't see her struggle and pain.

Since the start she gave her everything to this marriage despite the fact that she was going through so much already. Guilt, shame, anger, hate that's what I feel for myself right now. Even words are less to describe my feelings.

"Adi" Akshita pats on cheek breaking my chain of thoughts and my eyes clash with her innocent ones. All I could see in her eyes is pure innocence and love. Instead of hate which I deserve from her.

"I never thought my mere action could destroy someone's life. I didn't asked my parents to fix our alliance. I just thought about our marriage since I liked you at first sight. It just came across my mind. It wasn't intentional---I am sorry" My throat clogs making it difficult for me to speak and she rubs on my shoulder.

"I never knew you where forced into this. I am such a pathetic man. We were together but still so far and you had to deal with this all alone" Guilt weigh my eyes heavy and a tear slips from my eye.

"Why are you crying ? You never knew it's okay" She wipes my tears trying to coax me and I shake my head in no.

"I never knew because I never bothered to ask you this. You were right. You were broken still you managed to take this new responsibilty on yourself. That too alone. Look at me I was such a coward. A selfish bastard. I never tried to ask your back story. Never asked your feelings about it and just pushed you always. You didn't run away from your responsibilities like I did. How did you manage to do this all alone ?"

"So what. You also dealt with your past alone and performed your duties as good son and brother. You didn't give up right"
The fact I didn't put in an effort to be a good husband makes everything worse.

"No. All I did was to run away and push people from my life. Closing all the walls of my heart and hiding away" A dull ache forme in my chest and restlessness burns beneath my skin.

"I am so sorry Akshita. I ruined your life. I ruined your dream. I ruined everything for you" I rest my forehead on her shoulder with tears rolling down my cheeks and she pats on my shoulder.

She lifts my face, cradling my cheeks and swipe my tears. Her lip curls into a small smile and strokes my cheek.

"Don't cry Adi. You were suffering too and you realised now. You've changed so much and even mend our relationship" Why does she has to be so good ? I don't deserve an angel like her.

"But it can't the change the fact that I had only added to your sufferings. Instead of healing I gave you new wounds" Remnants of shame prickles my skin.

"It was Past. It's better to forget it and move on from it. Leave it behind" She adds with a beaming face and her eyes lit up with the hope of bright future.