Addicted to Heartache

Chapter 2 Part 4: Just Can't Get Enough

The next day I got into art class, Sam was already working on the portrait.
I grabbed an apron and some more containers of water colors and went and sat across from him.
"Hey."
He never looked up or even acknowledged that I was there.
"Look, I didn't know you liked me, I didn't know that you'd get that upset over something like that. I didn't go over there with the intention of sleeping with him."
Sam put down his paintbrush.
"I'm not upset because you slept with someone else or even because I like you, it's the fact that he did that to you and you still want him. That kind of hits home for me."
Everything Sam had said about his stepdad finally made sense.
"Your dad abuses your mom?"
Sam started shading his portrait again.
"She says he doesn't but I know what goes on when I'm not around. It's like I have this gut feeling, I can just tell, ya know?"
I didn't know, but I nodded anyway.
"I guess there's just something about the feelings I get when I'm with him. It's like adrenaline or narcotics, I just can't get enough."
Sam didn't say anything, he just shook his head.
"I like you scarlet. A lot. and I don't want you to get hurt again."
I grabbed Sam's hands in mine.
"Thank you. But I won't."
I leaned over and kissed Sam's cheek.
My eyelashes fluttered against his face and I felt him grin.
"If I happen to get back together with Lucas will you still be my friend?"
I sounded like a little kid. Sam laughed.
"Of course. You're all I know here."
I smiled at Sam. He was so sweet.
"Anyway, I'm having a party this weekend and being the new kid and all, I figured you'd want to come."
San looked so excited.
"Yeah! What can I bring?"
I laughed: "any alcohol that you can get your hands on. I don't condone drugs but somehow they end up coming. And also I don't allow drinking and driving so you can spend the night if you need to."
Sam nodded.
"I'll be there."