Addicted to Heartache

Chapter 2 Part 1: Blue Eyed Betrayal

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The next few days seemed to fly by. I hadn't spoken to Lucas since the night at my house and surprisingly he hadn't tried to contact me. Sam and I had become really close. We had been out to eat a few times but I couldn't tell if he viewed me as a friend or something more.

I stood in the lunch line and waited for my turn to pay.
"Still a vegetarian I see."
I turned around and saw Lucas.
"Yeah it's only been 5 days, I haven't changed that much."
I moved up in the line.
"I was wondering if you wanted to come to my house tonight."
"I don't know if that's a good idea."
when it was my turn to pay, Lucas cut in front
"Here I've got us both." He handed the lady a five dollar bill and we kept walking until we found an empty table to sit at.

"Just as friends, I actually need your help with my chemistry assignment. Castillo told me to ask you."
I rolled my eyes.
"Since when do you care about chemistry?"
"Since you left me and all I have to rely on is my education."
I laughed at Lucas. He was always the worst liar.
"I'll come to your house around 7 but I'm only staying for five minutes do you understand?"
Lucas nodded and smiled.
God was he beautiful.
I got up, tossing my trash in the trash bin and leaving the cafeteria.

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That night I pulled into Lucas' driveway around 7:15. He lived alone for the most part besides his friend Kyle that sometimes stayed over. I made my way to the door and it was unlocked so I went in. I sat my purse on the counter and went down the hall towards Lucas' room.
"Hey I'm here!"
"I didn't think you were coming, I'm in here."
I opened the door to Lucas' room. He was sitting in the floor playing his guitar.
"Come on in."
I sat on the bed awkwardly and waited for him to clean up his chord books and guitar picks off of the floor.
"So how've you been?"
"I've been okay. Fine actually. Sam has really taken my mind of you."
Lucas scoffed.
"Yeah? I bet he has."
Lucas turned on the radio and turned it up.
After a moment of even more awkward silence. I cleared my throat.
"So what's your chemistry assignment?"
"Relate the interactions and combinations and changes of us humans with that of science."
"And how are you going to do that?"
Lucas sat on the bed and scooted in close.
"Well I thought that maybe we could 'interact' and see if anything 'changes' when we 'combine' ourselves."
I laughed. Not at what Lucas said but at the idea of him going through all this trouble of making up a fake chemistry assignment just to sleep with me.
Lucas leaned in and rested his forehead against mine. The lights were so dim in his room it was so cozy. It felt like home to me.
The radio was playing one of my favorite songs. 'Can We Dance' by The Vamps.
It was me and Lucas' song. It seems cliche but he and his 'band' were playing it at the party where Lucas and I met.
"So what do you say?"
"I say lets test some science."
I teased his lips playfully before kissing him.
The thoughts of what Lucas did to me got lost in my mind as we made out. I couldn't help myself from letting him lay me down on the bed and crawl over top of me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and giggled.
It was like I could feel sparks when are skin touched. Igniting something so big and bright neither of us could control it.
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Maybe thirty minutes later, I rolled over on my side and Lucas wrapped his arm around me.
"I miss you a lot." He spoke softly into the back of my neck. I could feel the vibrations of his words slip from his lips and glide across my skin.
I didn't say anything because honestly, I didn't miss him as much as I expected to.
"I love you so much Scarlet."
He said moving strands of hair dangling in front of my face to behind my ear. He pressed his lips to my back.
"So freaking much. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for everything."
I couldn't tell if he meant it or not.
My eyes teared up but I never said a word.
Did he think I was asleep?
I slid from under Lucas' arm and stood up, slipping my clothes back on.
"That was a huge mistake."
I grabbed my phone and a bottle of jack Daniels off of Lucas' dresser.
I needed something to help me forget what had just happened.
"Where are you going?"
Lucas sat up.
"Scarlet!" I went down the hall and left as quickly as I could.
When I got home I sat in my car and opened the bottle of jack Daniels.
I finished it pretty fast. I was actually surprised in my drinking ability. I hid the bottle in my purse and went up to my room.
I must be a lightweight because I stumbled up the stairs and ended up crawling into my bathroom, puking.
I couldn't tell if I still felt so strongly about Lucas or if it was just the alcohol burning through my blood.
I rested my head against the toilet seat.
"What the hell did I do?"