One reason about you

Chapter 6, Jane

Everyone was getting ahead. I have fallen behind . Usual. I will have much more peace of mind. I thought about what happened before. What the hell did Jace do? I really thought he was a good guy. I didn't talk to him at all. Once I had the opportunity, it was for an emergency. He was quite ok, I had heard that he talks to many girls. It wasn't my problem. But I didn't see him as a man who would be bad, or judge someone. At least I think so. And Grigor, maybe Ray. It would certainly make a Ben, Luka, popular in the class, possibly also in the high school. I can only say nothing to them. They would never consider me a real boy. It would be understandable why. I don't knock my head. There is no point. In general Ewvrny high school is deserted. It doesn't have the best arrangements, amazing or whatever. If I were to think about it, this high school would transport me to a fantasy or horror world. I'm not necessarily into reading, but it would give me that feeling. And with people from this, I wouldn't be surprised. In the end, I step on the stairs, there are enough of them. I'm not complaining, I'm used to it. When I enter the door of my class, everyone will look at me. And so it is. I walked in the door, as quietly as I could. Everyone was in class, but it was quite noisy. Everyone was talking about what happened. Drama? In our class? It doesn't really exist. I mean we were all about our own business. But now ? They contradict each other, they talk quite strangely to each other. They have changed, they are no longer those chill people with a little more than me. And when I entered the words continued. Ben was talking to Luka, they didn't even understand each other. Although they were the most popular. Luka, he was outraged it seems:
- Why do you think that all the girls sit at your feet hm? It's not like that, even Violet left you. And you think I don't stand a chance with Riley?
Ben interrupted him:
- Don't mention Violet anymore, she was a bitch, I'll find a better one, and don't forget that I also talked to Riley, but she certainly doesn't want you, logically, you're not hers, she doesn't want each other religion.
That had sounded pretty badass to Luka. It's quite a mess. I wonder what they would think of me, would they say I'm a stupid trans or worse. In front of everyone. Maybe I'd feel bad, but in the end it's my choice, not to be the girl. The rest of the colleagues were whispering. A colleague tried to calm them down:
- That's enough, you can solve your problems after high school, right? We have Maths....
then Ben interrupted her:
- O Deea, you are self-advocating, but we all know that you fuck with Sam when she was a girlfriend. You're not special anymore.
Deea was red, she couldn't look at the class, she was one of the dumbest and you can see her like that. It means it's true. In my case it was, this class has so many secrets. I really don't care about them. And now I'm hearing all this, and what I'm going through. I don't even know what it's like to love someone like that. But then to fuck her up. The class smarts were whispering, the trio . They always gossiped. Daniele, Sabrina were looking, surprised. I'm surprised they haven't started filming. What's going on with my class? Or I didn't know them well enough. Either the problem is me, and I don't have it with gender stuff.
I had nothing to do, I left the phone at home, so I unfortunately had to listen to all the arguments. Jace, Grigor were sitting in the bank, for some reason, they were looking at me strangely. Why? No way do I want to be involved in this. Ben, startled by Luke, began:
- I mean, it's like all the boys in the class have a girlfriend, or a long time ago, and let's be honest, you Jace, you got hurt thinking you liked the girl from the 10th, and she beat I'm kidding you, I mean seriously, a man who studies and is poor, why not? And now you're doing this to her, alas, how ugly......
Jace got really angry and went to Ben saying:
- Do you hear what you're talking about? You don't even know much just hearsay, what's your business, got it? Don't get attached to everyone, we were friends but I regret it, you have changed completely, Grigor pulled Jace, they were about to fight. All phases were in my head: oh God, what crazy people. Ben had added:
- You've got a lot going for you, man, and a liar. Very smart hmm, as if you didn't brag continuously that you were going out with a girl, you also left a puddle, man, such a thing is not done, you can see that you have no experience... anyway that girl was smarter than you, he destroyed your reputation anyway, we see what kind of man you have become, in fact you always were, damn shit.
Ray Entered the class:
- What the hell is going on here, you can hear from outside.
Everyone was crazy in this class, suddenly this year. All because of trivial things. I could not understand. But this Dayla, I don't deserve this, I'm sure. Who knows what she's doing now, I could feel how sad she must be for the whole phase with Jace. Suddenly from the argument it came to punches, Jace entered the game: - You are a whore, and he punched him in the face, my classmates were shocked in the last half, of course me too, I didn't want to see that. Not at all. What crazy . What would teachers think about the best class, ie us? Ben was bleeding, but he didn't let himself down, he gave them back, some boys in the class could barely separate them. Then the Maths teacher arrived. Of course, she had called the directory. Teacher walked over to them and broke up, both boys were smitten. It was a first in our high school. Actually, a shock to expect this from my 11th grade.

They were taken to the direction of the high school. I still couldn't believe how crazy it was in our class an hour ago. Usually during breaks I stayed in class, but I decided to go to the bathroom. I had been sorry for no reason. I started running to the bathroom. Surely some classmates would have been amazed that I was from the class, in this condition. But damn my classmates. I had a problem, I didn't know which bathroom but without realizing it I went to the girls. No one would see me, I'm sure. We hope so. I entered quickly, I couldn't see if anyone was there. I felt nauseous, and suddenly I couldn't breathe normally. I tried to inhale and breathe. It was terrible. It was as if I was suffocating. Everything seemed to last forever. But I tried not to think about anything, whatever crossed my mind. And what I had in mind, it was her. Suddenly, I remembered her, and I could feel my pulse rising, and after a few seconds it stopped. I breathed slowly, I felt calmer. I took my glasses in my hand, wiped my eyes. I had to wash my face. I was looking in the mirror, that was me. A boy indeed. In the girls' bathroom. I had to hurry. I will be the body of the girl but we look like a boy, I had to hurry. I washed my face and put on my glasses. I noticed that I had something red on my fingers. It was blood. It came from the nose. My nose was bleeding. Dear good . I took a napkin at random, and wiped myself, it was flowing instantly. I decided to hold it to my nose for a while, I had to hurry. When I went out, a blonde girl appeared, she seemed familiar to me, I quickly looked down. And I slipped so fast, I don't know if he had any reaction. Look, I did this too. But I still felt weird and dizzy. The blood was slowing down. I was in front of the class. Of course the class was starting in a few minutes, I had to apologize for being late, with a tissue to my nose and probably pale. I had to do it. I pressed the door handle and entered. It will be fine, I was fine when the mind saw it.