The story of my twisted life

Chapter 5

⚠️Triggers warning rape sexual assault abuse are all talked about in this chapter⚠️

Louis

Zayn just kicked hope out of the apartment I could hear the hurt and confusion in her voice but we didn't have a choice I don't what our excuse will be tomorrow on why we kicked her out out of nowhere hell if I was her I wouldn't even talk to us again what we did was rude as fuck.

I sit anxiously in my seat anytime we get a text like this. It gives me so much anxiety because everyone of our bosses' henchmen, as I like to call them know how to hit me where it hurts and they'll do it at random times no matter what to hurt me to feel powerful.

Just on cue two big men walk through the door. They are always different from the time before because so many people step out of line.

"Gentleman, what do we owe this pleasure?" Zayn asks sarcastically.
"Cut the shit Malik." The henchman on the right says.
"Fine fine don't get your panties in a twist now" zayn smirk
"Boss needs you to break into this rich guys mansion" he cuts to the chase
"Of course he does" I mumble stupidly
"What was that Tomlinson?" Henchman on the left asks.
"Nothing" l mumble slouching down. I hate showing that I'm scared of them and showing my weakness but in this business you need to be a little bit afraid.
"That's what I thought cause I don't think your family would like it very much if your out of the race for your mouth isn't that right" he smirks

My eyes widened and I shakes my head

No they can't, they're going to hurt the girls no. My thoughts were everywhere

"We will be in touch boys" with that they left.
My eyes start to water a little bit.  I put my head down in embarrassment

When we were forced to join the gang I did everything in my power to make sure my family wouldn't get hurt. I took all the beatings and punishments they could throw at me.

My mother stepped up and tried to get them to stop. They beat my poor mother to death. My father always blamed me so at home it got really bad too. When your in the gang punishments can be mentally abusing you degrading you all the way to sexual assault. I have had all the punishments they could put out. They don't care how traumatized they make you, they won't stop till they think it's enough. If you die you're weak. I took the fall for every single mistake everyone in my family made. I still do to this day.

My father hates me so he would purposely get in trouble so I'm punished. One month ago they shot my father dead. He got into too much shit and they ended his life.  I haven't told the boys that yet because it's actually really embarrassing. My sisters, Lottie, Fizzy, Daisy, and Phoebe are all alone now. I did find out they are in good hands though and protected. I haven't been punished in a while. Those girls try to say out of trouble so I don't get hurt.

Lottie is only 12, Fizzy is 11 and the twins are 7. They are all so young it makes me sick that they have to deal with this shit.

When we joined it was only me, Lottie and our parents. My mom was pregnant with Fizzy. I was 10 when we were forced to join Lottie was 3 and Fizzy was going to be born in a few weeks. 4 years later the twins were born. When I was holding my mother as she was dying. She made me promise to keep the girls safe ever since then I have kept that promise. No matter how many punishments I have to take, how many beatings from my father I always have kept them safe.

I was snapped out of my train of thought with zayn sitting in front of me

"Lou look at me" I look him in the eyes
"We are going to get them out of there your sisters won't grow up like you had to. They will be happy no matter who wins, they are getting out of there" he stated my voice lacing with seriousness.
"He's going to hurt them" my voice cracks.
"Then we will raise hell" Niall pipes up.
"They shouldn't have To live in a gang" my voice breaks again.

It looks like he's deep in thought. Him and Harry lost their families and that's why they joined the gang. I never knew what happened. I'm close with both of them but it's not my place to ask. Niall and Liam's families willingly joined I never understood that either some days I just wish they would've only taken me and left my family alone. My mother would still be alive my father wouldn't have started hating me till he was shot my sisters , my beautiful sisters wouldn't have to live in fear.

I'm pretty sure my sisters probably hate me too. I've ruined their lives.

"Lou, everything is going to work out, you have my word" he looks me in the eyes.

I nodded my head and leaned it on Niall's shoulder with my eyes shut. I need to calm down and relax. I'm not ready for this fucking break in I don't want to do it and I don't want hope to be involved with any of this ever.

When she was talking about her ex I could tell he wasn't just a bad person he either sexually assaulted her raped her or slapped her around I know this because of the fact the same shit while being punished has happened to me. It is traumatizing if I find that boy he will be dead in a minute. She reminds me of an older version of Lottie. I want to keep her as safe as I possibly can. I don't want to win her heart but that's the only way I can free my sisters.

And I'll do anything to free them.