𝐑𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝐏𝐨𝐥𝐲 𝐁𝐋

𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞, 𝒖𝒏𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒖𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑

Caleb

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Bastard😒

Bastard 😒:
I told you I wanna meet up, where are you?

Me:
I'm in class. Stop texting me, I can't focus

Bastard 😒:
This is why I told you to not go to that damn college, it's like you care more about that stupid education shit than me 😒

I roll my eyes at his text. Because I do. I place my phone back on the table and start typing on my computer again, but my phone vibrates and I let out a quiet groan before picking it up.

Bastard 😒:
Don't ignore me. Are you forgetting I basically control you? If you keep pissing me off that little brother of yours is gonna be in danger real soon

Me:
Fuck you

Bastard 😒:
You have before. You're great at it.

Don't tell me you're mad, god you can get so emotional over the littlest shit. Why am I even with you

Me:
Because no one else wants you, and you decide that I was your last resort at not being single.

Bastard 😒:
You'd better watch what you say

Me:
Go fuck yourself
Read 12:26 P.M.

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     I turned my phone on silent before pushing it down into my pocket. Was I scared of him? Not necessarily, but what he could do to the people I care about. I didn't have much privilege with him. But I knew he couldn't do anything until I activatly tried something. So I could say what I wanted to him. Unless it was about his dead family members. But I'm not that cruel to bring dead family members into an argument.

I continued to type on my computer the note that my professor had on the board and was explaining.

I've been living with my roommates for the last two weeks. Everything has been alright. But we don't really talk as much as I wanted. I wanted to rekindle the friendship we had at least.

I mean we were friends... just not close friends

I would love for us to get back in the relationship we had before. Which I know is a distant dream. They aren't interested in me anymore.

But the idea of us being together still causes me to smile. The feeling of them holding my hand.
Damien randomly hugging me from behind. Or Milo sitting in my lap with a cute grin on his face. Damien pressing chaste kisses on my skin as he tells me how much he enjoys my company. Milo happily explaining his train of thought while his head lays on my shoulder slowly falling asleep.

Damien lips harshly kissing my neck, forcing me to say his name with every breath I let out.
Pinning Milo to the bed, watching his poker face falters as he accidentally let's out a moan.
Damien pressing me again a wall, his hands roam mindlessly around my body as he kisses me hungerily. Milo, sitting on my stomach without a shirt, leaning down to my ear and whispering-

"Class is dismissed." My professor announced and I quickly woke up out of my trance. My face was the color of a tomato as I gathered my things and left.

I can't believe I was think about that during class! I can already feel everything getting hot as I head to my next class, which has Damien in.

I wasn't gonna survive

I walk in and sit in my seat, everyone slowly walks in the class, and before I knew it Damien sat down next to me. I didn't know Damien had this class until 3 day ago and neither did he since this was a large class. But he started to sit by me, and it was good to see a familiar face.

"Good afternoon." He smiled as he pulled his computer out, and I immediately did the same.

"Good afternoon indeed." I responded, this was how we would respond to one another when we saw one another. Sometimes we'd toss a few jokes, but other than that we were quiet.

"You know you're the only person I know that says indeed." His forarm rest on the table, his back slightly hunched a bit.

"Crazy indeed."

He lets out a chuckle as he shakes his head and looks back at his computer. I do the same. After 30 seconds our professor starts teaching and explaining whatever he had on his screen.

Everything was alright until a notification went off, which would have been fine if it didn't go off so loudly, which caused the Professor and students to look around at the sudden noise.

"Put your phone on silent whoever that is." He lightly scolded before going back to teaching.

I wanted to sink into the seat that I'm sitting in and just never be seen again. I thought I put it on silent. Pulling out my phone I find out it wasn't on silent. I clicked the wrong button. Of course I did.

I look at the notification and see that It's Nathan texting me once again. It has something to do with me being an emotional bitch. Which is great. Just what I want to read in the middle of fucking class.

If I could I would beat the absolute shit out of him. I want to, but I'm an adult now. I can't fight someone and still think nothing of it, I could possibly go to jail.

Why is life so complicated?

"You ok?" I hear Damien faintly ask. I look over and I see that he has a concern expression. I'm guessing my face gave away my mood, I don't really have a good poker face.

"Boyfriend issues, he's just upset."

"Him calling you an emotional bitch is more than an issue." He states his brows flat, tone slightly deepened as he had an mildly upset expression with concern.

He saw the text?

"I didn't purposely look, but when I looked over I saw the text. I'm not gonna pry, but that isn't ok." He looked like he was about to say something else but he stopped himself. I turned around and muttered something before going back to my computer.

I just want out of this unfortunate relationship.

I just want real love

Why is the universe so against my romantic desires?