The other women

Ten.

I sat on the sofa watching her freak out and I understand, Olivia phoning really fucked up our day. She was complaining about me not letting her know I was safe, and then that I did not message her this morning, I just forgot because being with Ava made me forget a lot of things, I can only focus on her when I am with her. "I really want to go out like a normal couple, I want to meet your friends, bring lunch to your office and I would love to meet your daughter, but I also know that will never happen, just for once I want to be able to tell people about you." she finally finish breathing heavy looking at me folding her arms, I did not know what to say to her and I know everything she is saying is true, and I would love to do all that thing as well.

"Baby, I know but you know we can't, you knew from the beginning this is how it will be." she roll her eyes and sigh. "I know, but to be honest Michael, I cannot do this anymore." my heart stopped here it is she is going to tell me to go back to Olivia and leave her for good, I can't let that happen I will not let that happen. "Well I cannot give you anymore at the moment." I say standing up to get water, she walk with me and lean against the kitchen counter. "Maybe it's good that you are going away with Olivia, then you can fix what is broken, you and me we need to be apart for a bit, maybe if we are you will realize that I am not what you want." she say and I snapped my head at her. "Let's get one thing straight, I am not with you to pass my time, I am way too fucking busy for that, I am with you because we have something special and we have a bond that I never had with anyone else not even my fucking wife." I say raising my voice a bit.

She look shocked at my tone, looking down at her hands. "I do not want you Ava, I fucking NEED you." I say and she just stare at me she was shocked and so was I. "Do you love me Michael?" she ask and I gasp, if I admit it to her there was not turning back and then I will just hurt her more when this thing ends. "I cannot answer that." I say and I can see the hurt in her eyes. "It's simple Michael, you ask me last night why I don't ask you to leave Olivia well now I am doing it, I want you to choose between us, you had both of us for 7 months and you cannot have us both anymore, you have to choose." she say and I was shocked and angry. "I am not choosing." I say and she nods. "Then I will make it simple for you, it's over go back to your wife, to your family." she say walking out of the kitchen. I could not believe our wonderful night and day has turned into the worst day of my life.

I walked to the room and I started getting my things together, she was sitting on the bed. "Baby, let's just talk." I try again and she shake her head. "No, let's just end it here before we fall in too deep, go enjoy the time with your family, and try to make it work with your wife, she deserve that." she say looking at me with tears in her eyes. "Ava, I don't want to end things like this." I say and she wipe a tear. "I cannot do this anymore, I am the only one that is losing at the end of the day, when you leave I am the one that is alone and to be honest I deserve better." she say and I agree with her she does, she deserve better. "Ava" I try but she stops me. "Just go Michael, don't make it harder than it is." she say and I nod walking to her and gave her on last kiss on the head. I walked to my car, knowing I just left the best thing that ever happened to me all because I was too scared to stand up for what I want.

"FUCK!" I shout hitting the steering wheel, I knew this day will come but I did not know it will be today, I should go back and tell her I will leave Olivia but I cannot, I know I can't maybe if I leave her alone for a bit she will come to her senses and realize we need each other, I drove to my daughters school, I wanted to spend time with her. I picked her up letting Olivia know I have her and we got some ice cream, we sat on a bench in the park while she eats her ice cream. "Daddy, are you happy?" she ask me and I look down at her. "Yes baby girl, why would you ask that?" I ask smiling down at her. "I just heard mommy say the other night she thinks you're not happy anymore." I sigh, fucking Olivia she needs to watch what she say. "Well, mommy doesn't know what she is saying baby, I am happy, I have you I will always be happy if I have you." I say kissing her head.

"You do work a lot" she say and I nod. "I know, but it's because daddy wants to make sure you and mommy have everything you want." I say and she smiles. "If you ever leave mommy I want to stay with you" she say and I frown looking at her. "I am not leaving mommy, so don't worry about any of that." I say and she smile, "Can I go play a bit?" she ask and I nod watching her run off. I need to talk to Olivia, she needs to watch what she say in front of my daughter, I could not help think of Ava, I know she is heartbroken and I wish I could just tell her I love her, but I did not have the balls. If it wasn't for Lily I would have left Olivia for Ava, I would have taken all the shit from my father and my partners just for Ava, but I cannot put Lily through all of that.

"Lily, come let's go baby girl." I shout at her and she came running to me, we walk to the car and I drove home with her, I watch her in the rear view mirror playing with her doll and I know she is worth it all, she is the only one that is going to keep me going from now on. I picket her out of the car and she ran to the house, I took her bag and mine and I walked into the house, I hear her tell Olivia about the park and I smile, walking to the kitchen. "Hi, your back early." she say walking to me giving me a kiss. "Yeah, the meeting ended earlier than I though." I say sitting at the kitchen Isle. "Lily baby, go play in your room I need to talk to mommy." I say and she nods running up the stairs. I see Olivia frown. "Lily asked me today if I was happy." I say and she nods. "Okay." she say folding her arms. "You need to watch what you say in front of her Olivia, she is a child she doesn't need to know everything that is wrong in our life." I say getting frustrated.

"I'm sorry okay, but that is how I feel, it feels like you are not here for me anymore, your always working and we haven't touched each other in a while what am I supposed to say that you are so happy?" she ask throwing her hands in the air. I stand up not ready for another fight. "I am not discussing this now, we can do that later." I say walking out the kitchen to my office.