The other women

Eleven.

After Michael left I broke down, I was heartbroken I really thought he would fight for me, I thought he would tell me he will leave his wife and be mine, I was wrong he didn't and maybe I was the only one in love, maybe he was just using me like Mia kept on saying. I did not leave my house for two days, I was heartbroken and it felt like my whole world collapsed. He did message me but I chose to ignored him, telling me he miss me, we need to talk all that but I know now he did not mean any of it. He was on his holiday with his family by now and I have to forget him. I have my trip in Monaco and me and Mia is leaving tomorrow, she was over while I packed.

"Have you heard anything from him?" she ask I sigh looking at her lying on my bed and I shake my head. "No, he is on holiday with his family so no." I say and she nods. "I know you are hurting Ava but it's for the best, now you can be with someone that can actually go out in public with you." she say and I nod packing some shoes. "I know, but please understand Mia I loved him, I mean we were together for 7 months, that feelings won't just disappear." I say and she nods. "I know." she say and thank goodness she doesn't ask any more questions. "I am so excited to go to Monaco." she say and I smile. "Me too" I finish packing and we ordered dinner, she is spending the night here so that we can leave to the airport together.

I couldn't sleep that night like most nights since we broke up, I listen to Mia snoring next to me and I sigh standing up to go to the kitchen. I made myself tea and I just lean against the counter drinking my tea, thinking of Michael. Why is it so hard for me to move on from him, just then I got a message and I frown it was late who will be messaging me.

Michael: I cannot do this without you, I have done what you said I tried working on it with her, but I can't we need to talk when I get back.

I frown what does that mean, I decided to answer him for the first time in almost a week.

Me: I'm leaving for Monaco tomorrow Michael, unless you want to tell me you are leaving her I don't want to hear it.

I look at my phone waiting patiently for him to answer and he does, but again it's not what I wanted to hear.

Michael: Enjoy Monaco baby, I know you will do great.

I did not answer him after that, he will never leave his wife and I am accepting that, I went to bed and finally fell asleep. We need to wake up in a few hours to catch our plane. I woke up with my alarm going off and I groan, we took a taxi to the airport and I fell in the seat, Mia laugh next to me. "Did you sleep at all?" she ask and I shake my head. "No, these days I struggle to sleep." I say and she nods. We took off and I fell asleep. Mia woke me up and we were in Monaco, we went to the hotel and decided to explore the city, we only need to go in for fittings tomorrow. Monaco was beautiful and I enjoyed it here, "We really need to go to one of the clubs here before we go back." Mia say and I agree. We had room service in the hotel and I was happy that we are not sharing a room, I lay in bed that night again not being able to sleep, I look at the time and I see it will be time for Michael to start work now.

I went to sit on the sofa, better that tossing and turning in bed, I scrolled through Instagram to pass time when my phone rang, I see its Michael and for a moment I considered not answering, I just needed to hear his voice once. "Hello" I answer and I hear relieve in his voice. "Hi baby" he say using that name. "Michael stop calling me that." I say pulling the blanket over my legs. "Sorry, what time is it there?" he ask and I frown, this is weird, talking like we are something. "It 3 in the morning." "Did I wake you?" "No, I have trouble sleeping these days." I say taking a deep breath. "I know the feelings." He say and it was quiet again. "What do you want Michael?" I ask "I just wanted to hear your voice." he say and I close my eyes, trying the tears from stopping. "You need to stop, you need to let me go." I say trying hard for him not to hear me cry. "I can't, I will never be able to." he say and I cover my mouth with my hand for the sob not to escape.

"Ava, I miss you." he say and I took a deep breath. "I have to go Michael, I have a long day tomorrow." "Ava please." he begs but I can't do this, I need to let him go. "Have a good day Michael." I say before I end the call, not stopping the tears from falling anymore. I walk to the room and fell asleep from exhaustion, I woke up the next morning and we went to the studio, we got fitted and told what to do and I was happy that the day was busy and I did not have a lot of time to think of Michael. The week went by fast and it was Saturday already, time for the fashion show, we were busy with hair and makeup and then got fitted, we were a few models so it was busy. The fashion show went great and I actually enjoyed it, I was busy getting ready to go to a club, me and Mia with a few other models decided to celebrate at one of the clubs.

I walked with Mia our arms link, "Were flying back tomorrow, are you planning on seeing Michael?" she ask and I shake my head. "No, I told you already it's over Mia now drop it." I say and she nod, we walked into the club and I was impressed, I can see Monaco is a rich city even the clubs looked rich, we sat at a table and just had a great time, we took photos and for the first time I was really having a good time. A few guys came and introduced themselves to us and they joined us through the night, I was not interested in any of them the last time I met a guy in another city it turned out that he was married and he broke my heart. "Come lets go dance." Mia say pulling me with her to the dance floor.

We danced and had a good time, I laugh a lot with the others and I realize this is what I have been missing, I missed going out and enjoying myself I was always too busy making plans with Michael to sneak around and I missed out on a lot, maybe just maybe I will find someone that wants me and that wants to go out with me and that is not married.