"𝘜𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺, 𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘮..𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦.."
And the world seemed to have died down in silence to him. He got struck by that sentence that he no more had the energy to cry out aloud although he wanted to cry his lungs out since thats the only way he can express his feelings of losing someone this close to him.
It seemed like the time was stopped for a minute and there was no method to escape this.
He knelt down in sorrow that he was the reason wooyoung had got into this.
Wooyoung was such a lovely, kind and a heartful person. San lured him onto this which was followed by wooyoung only because of his situation.
San knew. There was no time to get back down. There were no time machines which existed to change things happened in the past.
He was alone now.
He has lost his best friend. His boyfriend. And his one and only. All because of his silliness and stubbornness.
San thought he deserved this. But at the same time he knew wooyoung didnt deserve this.
He remembered wooyoungs last look. There was a hint of sadness, regret and anger within himself. That look he gave looked like he wanted to hug san and bid his last goodbye to him. As if he knew this would happen even earlier.
And that dragged sans regret within himself.
The pain he felt were just too much.
Too much to even describe it.
-"-
He went in the ICU.
Wooyoung was lying there motionless. he was not alive anymore. And san noticed his tear stains which might have been his last tears and seeing wooyoung like this, he began crying.
Crying onto wooyoungs chest feels good usually.
But it just didnt feel good anymore without the sound of his heartbeat.
Still crying, he leaned down to wooyoung and placed a soft and deep kiss on his lips. That felt so bad when he knew he wouldnt get a response.
He dragged his lips to wooyoungs forehead and placed a gentle kiss there knowing he would miss this in the future.
Wooyoung just was too good for him.
He bent down to wooyoungs ears.
"𝘐-𝘢𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺. 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦. 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴. 𝘉𝘶𝘵- 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘶𝘱? 𝘊𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦? 𝘞𝘢𝘴 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦? 𝘈𝘮 𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘥?
He broke down before he could finish it.
"𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘪 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦. 𝘐 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘱𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨...
Looking around he could only come up to one decision after seeing those surgerical knives.
𝘛𝘴𝘬.
He gave his weak smirky chuckle.
And just like that, the veins connected to his heart was cut off.
Blood spilled everywhere.
And he didnt wanna be saved anymore.
So he locked the door of the ICU forbidding the entrance of any doctors and laid next to wooyoung hugging him.
The room was so stuffy.
He realised his breathing pace was becoming hard each second and decided to give out his last words.
"𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦, 𝘪 𝘢𝘮 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘶𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘺𝘰𝘶-"
He stopped there as he struggled to breathe.
The pain was just too much. It stung. But he deserved it for everything he had done.
He smiled, feeling his last breath leave his body.
ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀs ᴘᴏᴠ.
Wooyoung and san had come across multiple layers onto getting to know each other. It all started that night. Where they were just strangers dealing with their own struggles.
Meeting with all those struggles, all they could do was take up illegal actions onto their own hands. It isnt simply that those were illegal actions. But it was just unfair to so much more individuals throughout.
They befriended each other and had one of the closest relationship out there. Something within themselves knew that they were just something more than what could be called friendship and it ended right there when they discovered their feelings for one another.
A new relationship was born there.
Something which was much more beautiful and painful.
Beautiful because their love language seemed to have gotten themselves around each other which was a sense of possesiveness and protectiveness,
Painful beacuse it was just too much painful to watch your loved one leave you just because of your own mistake.
If only they were more cautious in what they were doing.. They would have beem together living happily just like anyone else who have survived even tougher times than this.
That night. Where the first met, was not an 'over night play' but now that we look back onto it, it seems more like that title would be the best to describe their story.
'Over night play' is a story where wooyoung and san both were able to hide themselves with their true identies but could not save themselves from their own wave of struggles they had to face.
This is a story written to show the emotional struggles and painful moments the teenage youngsters go through which then is being followed by their future selves.
Allowing you to know your own limits is so important. So live your life without affecting anyone elses.
ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ
