Feelings Lie ( I Don't Feel Anything)

~there was once me~

Lydia is lying peacefully on her bed facing the ceiling with her hands slightly open. her breathing pattern is normal with her body temperature warmed up, both of her hands are placed on her chest and she blinks normally with her legs crossed on the surface of the bed. One confusing thing about this moment is that shes not thinking about anything. her eyes are just fixed on the white ceiling board with no thoughts in her mind. Her mind is just blank. After minutes or seconds her alarm makes noise which is peaceful and smooth. As the alarm goes on, she hears her name being called out downstairs " Lydia! Breakfast," she slowly closed her eyes and breathes in and out and takes out a big sigh. Slowly gets off her bed and and takes her school bag by the mirror. And she didn't even bother looking at herself in.

She goes downstrairs her head faced down and down to the kitchen she sees her mother cutting some cheese by the kitchen table. She froze for a moment and just stared at her mother in silence. She's disturbed by a rough hand touching her shoulder from behind. "morning mom" he says while pulling out a chair. Lydia gulps and looks down and gently says "dont you dare think of touching my shoulder" her mom and Nate, the boy who touched her earlier also turned to look at Lydia. Only to see someone standing behind her reaching for her shoulder as well.

Nate turns to face his mom who is still looking at Lydia and Tane who is standing like a statue behind her. Nate chuckles at the moment and takes the sandwhich her mother just gave her.

Lydia goes to the kitchen table and pulls out a chair and sits down and places her bag next to her. Nate turns looking at her smiling. And this makes Lydia quite un normal. "Need to say something Nate?" She finally says as her mother places a plate with a sandwhich infront of her. "No" he brutly says and faces the other direction.
"He might have nothing to say but I have a lot" Tane says pulling a chair next to Lydia. Lydia sighs looking unbothered by Tane. "Tane stop," his mother tells her. Tane turns to his mom with a sad baby face. "But mom- how did she know I was behind her?" He asked her mother. Lydia does not bother listening to them she slightly raised her wrist to her face to check the time on her watch. "I have to go. School" she silent says and stands up and leaves.

 Tane looks at Nate and their mom who looks at Lydia as she disappears to the living room door with a completely worried face on the other hand Nate looks on the untouched sandwich which was meant for Lydia.

Lydia waits for the bus by the road as Fresh morning cool wind goes through her hair. She's wearing a blue school uniform with a blaser written her name.

The bus comes minutes later and she enters the bus in slow motion and she straightly goes to the back seat by the window.

She takes her earpods and plays songs trying to avoid the noise around her. And slowly closed her eyes.

They arrive at school. penale high. The school she dislikes of them all. She goes through the hall to see someone on her locker spraying black paint around it. She moves towards her locker and stands there waiting for the person to look in her direction.

Seeing the person is so focused on Lydia's locker She finally speaks "Hi" the person almost fell down hearing Lydia speak. He turned and looked at Lydia with his eyes widened up.

John. His name, Lydia looked at her locker to see written writings written, Go to hello devil, no room for robots in this school, school occupied for zombies to enter.

Lydia then turned to John who was ready to run away. And said "if you dont want the zombie in front of you to eat you you're going to wipe the paint off" John just looked down at His spray pain in the floor. Lydia then started to move pass John then stopped midway not looking at him from behind. " who was it?" She asks. "Who was who?" John asks " John, Who was it?" She asked again. "Marinite" he quietly says and Lydia left to her class.