Chapter one
"Please god, make this pain go away! Please, ill do anything.. ill be good, I swear! Please.." I begged, hoping he'd hear my prayers. I knew he wouldn't, he never does. He never helps me, the pain never fades... I couldn't control the crying anymore, the tears came bursting through my eyes. And the pain swirled in my chest, the pain made it harder to breath. I tried to slow my rapid breaths, but I failed. I Pulled my knees to my chest and rocked myself, while I sobbed. Even after the sobs I still felt as bad as I did when i started. There's only one thing that lessons the burden of this pain.. my body and brain went into a trance. And when I awoke from the trance, I was cleaning the fresh blood off my new wounds. What had I done to myself? I looked down at my bloody stomach and saw three long deep cuts. Blood kept pouring from them, adreniline flooded through my veins. Atleast the pain was gone, right? I applied pressure to the wounds until they finally stopped bleeding. I cleaned everything up, and tried to ignore the guilt I was feeling. Cut yourself again, eh? What's wrong with you? You're a mental case, you know that right? If people see they'll take you to a mental hospital, but maybe that's a good thing, it seems like you belong there.. you're such a freak. As these negative thoughts flashed through my mind, I numbly attempted to sleep. Cutting provided me with something I needed, something I would give anything to have. It gave me numbness. A feeling where I had no pain, yes there wasn't happiness, but Atleast I had no pain. And yeah I was filled with guilt and regrets after, but the pain was gone. isn't that all that matters?
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Overcoming My Father
Teen Fictionarea, is abused by her father in more than one way. she believes it is all her fault and that she caused him to abuse her. she self harms to try and deal with the pain the abuse has left her with. will she realize its not her fault? will she overcom...
