Overcoming My Father

Chapter 11

The past few days went by painfully slow. I got out of the hospital Friday at noon. So I had the whole weekend to 'prepare myself for school' as my mom put it. But I am planning this entire thing. I've got my plan set of how I'm going to do it, now I'm just going to wait for the right time. The perfect time to die. I feel good about this plan! Saturday, I was consumed in planning, and by Sunday, my brain was ready to explode. A break would be nice. 'Hey tay, what's up?' I sent a text to Taylor hoping shed want to do something. I needed to get out of the house. Suicide plotting took a lot of energy. 'Hey girl! About to go to a party, wanna join? :)' Taylor replied to my text. Yes! 'Sounds sweet, come pick me up. (:' I replied. I threw in some semi fancy clothes, fixed my hair and makeup by the time Taylor showed. I walked into the living saw my dad sitting on the couch. "I'm leaving." I said and slammed the door before he could protest. Not like he'd say much, he pretty much gave up on me. "Hey Tay!" I exclaimed as I slide in the passenger seat of her old car. "Hey girl! I am so glad you're coming!" She practically yelled in my ears. As a annoying as she could be, I loved being in her presence. We had familiar comfortable, gossip talk on the way to the party, it was nice.

We walked in and were slammed with the loud upbeat music, and smell of crazy drunk people. Yup, this for sure was a party. Taylor pulle me straight for the drinks, as I thought she would. I took a drink, but I wanted something stronger. I had to find a boy for Taylor so I could go off in my own. I scanned the room for a cute boy and stopped when my eyes fell on him. He was gorgeous. Pale white skin, bright blue eyes, black hair and a very nice body. I couldn't get my eyes off of him. Someone bumped me, pushing me to the ground. My face slammed into some guys shoe, I looked up, and it was him. He bent down, and with his hand he brushed the hair off my cheeks. Leaving a tingle where his had touched. "Are you okay?' He asked with a sweet husky voice. My heart stopped. He keeps getting more perfect by the second. "I am now," I smiled foolishly, and blushed at him. He pulled me up, an I looked into his eyes for the first time. I got lost in his eyes, it's like I found myself there. He smiled at me, sending chills through me. "I'm chad, by the way," he smiled at me again, and raised an ebrow at me. "Hey chad, I'm area," I sad softly, with a hint if a smile. "We'll area, why don't we go for a walk? What do ya say?" He asked, looking hopeful. I looked back and saw Taylor macking on some guy. She wouldn't notice me gone. "I'd love too." This time I couldn't hide my smile. Chad took my hand and led me to the front door. I felt a cool breeze as we walked from the party. "Your cold." He said. Oh great, he's going to give me his jacket! "Yeah," I replied softly, trying to hide a shiver. "Follow me." He tugged on my hand and pulled me down the street. We made our way to a big field. "What are we doing here?" I asked him, even though I knew he wasn't going to tell me. "Just come!" He said. I followed him with ease, a million questions running through my mind. He stopped, sat down, and pulled at my hand for me to do the same. I sat beside him and leaned my head on his shoulder, searching for warmth. I was so cold! He pulled me into his lap, and wrapped his arms around me instantly warming and calming me. I looked down at him and smiled. He smiled back, and leaned forward, I leaned slightly. He crossed the rest of the way until our lips met. As soon as they touched, my body came alive. All those bad feelings, were washed away. My whole body was on fire. I pulled away, and tried to breathe. I looked at him, he was breathing just as heavy a me. "That was, amazing." He whispered softly in my ear. "You're telling me!" I joked and giggled. He was just about to lean in for another kiss when my phone went off. "Sorry, it's probably taylor" he nodded. 'Where the hell are you, we gotta go, almost curfew!' Taylor texted. "Crap, I gotta go!" I jumped up realizing I was late. He walked me to Taylor's car, and stoppe when we got there. "I had a nice time area, thank you." He said softly an kissed my cheek and walked away. I could've stared at him walking away for days, but I was late. I sat down beside Taylor, already guessing what she was going to say.

"I want all the details! What happened between you and chad channers?!" She exclaimed. "Wait, you know him?" I inquired. Hoping she did so bad. "Yeah, he's the hottest football player, where have you been girl!" Taylor said excitedly. Oh my gosh, he's on the football team? He goes to my school? Where have I been? "Oh my gosh, really?" I freaked. "Yes, now details." She ordered. Where to start? "We'll, I kind of smashed my face on his shoe.. Then he helped me up, and took me outside. We went to this field an day together and we were in the middle if kissing when you texted me." I gave her just enough detail to get her excited. And you can bet she freaked the whole way to my house. "Thanks Tay, see you tomorrow," I said as I opened the door. "See you a," she replied. I felt almost happy, until I realized where I was. Then a stabbing pain coursed through my body. I almost gasped it was so intense. I opened the door slowly, and to my luck my dad was passed out on the couch. I made my way to my room slowly and quietly. I changed into pjs, but was too tired to take off my make up. As soon as my head hit the pillow, I was hit with a thousand thoughts. Some about my dad, and some about chad. But I didn't want to think tonight, I just wanted to sleep. When the clock hit five and I knew I wasn't going to sleep, I threw on my running clothes and went for a run. I ran until six-thirty before making my way home. Dad had left for work, thankfully. I showered quickly and got myself ready for school. When I got there, there was a note on my locker. It was from chad! The note read:

Sorry for all the grammar mistakes, I'm writing this on my phone. Thanks for reading. (: how do you like my cliff hanger?