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in the night

'in the night when she comes crawling
dollar bills and tears keep falling down her face'

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in the night
the weeknd

I WAS SITTING, song lyrics were replaying in my head, as usual.

in the night started playing in my head, which was one of my favourite songs. The lyrics really made me think about jobe, the way we were always sneaking around in the evening.

nothing has changed about our friendship during the day, but in the night we're suddenly all over each other.

It was kinda weird, I just couldn't help myself. No matter how bad I could ever want it to stop, I just couldn't bring myself to stop.

But lately I'd just really been having flashbacks when I'm with jobe, of former boyfriends or situationships that had always kept me a 'secret', we'd only ever hang out privately and in the night.

I just felt bad, jobe wasn't even trying to keep me as a secret, it was me who was trying to keep him as a secret. I don't know why, we're friends and everyone knows that, but I don't need anyone to know we kiss from time to time.

though there was a picture leaked, from us at Sophia's party, kissing.

my comments had been full with people asking about it, even ship accounts being made just because of one picture, you couldn't even see it was us unless you were told.

but obviously everyone ran with the news immediately and it spread like wildfire, so now I have to deal with these annoying comments about something I never wanted to be public.

"you alright?" jobe asks snapping me out of my thoughts, I was at his house to watch a movie we had both been dying to watch since it came out.

"I'm fine" I smile, I wasn't gonna tell him about my feelings toward the whole thing we had going on, it was fun until it turned into public knowledge.

I was gonna shut any dating rumours down sometime this week, so this could stop once and for all, but I wasn't sure when.

"you look sad" he says, it caught me off guard that he kept pushing, something he normally never did. He'd always just say 'alright' and ignore it.

"just tired" I answer, it was a very dry response. You could've easily picked up that I was actually tired, my thoughts had just kept me up all night

"alright" he puts his arm over my shoulder as he gets comfortable. We were in his room, watching a horror movie while Sophia and Jude we're out to an event.

we had both decided to watch the movie in his room and not downstairs, so that when Sophia and Jude came home, they wouldn't ask any questions.

Denise and mark were also out, they had been for almost a month now, they were somewhere on holiday while their kids stayed home for their careers.

I admired Denise and mark, they raised two amazing and talented sons, I hope I will someday have kids as successful and great as Jude and jobe are.