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ARE WE STILL FRIENDS?

'are we still friends? can we be friends?
are we still friends? I've got to know'

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ARE WE STILL FRIENDS?
Tyler, the creator

IT HAD BEEN 3 DAYS SINCE I LAST SAW JOBE, it were our last days together before football season started again, I had hoped we could've spent those days together.

he's definitely been ignoring me though. but today he'd have to face me, we were going out tonight and Mae had told me he'd be there.

Part of me was happy he'd be there, I wanted to see him.

It hurt to admit it but I had really missed him, he's become a big part of my life after all. I'd never forget about him even if I tried, I just wanted to forget about the kisses.

we had just one too many kisses. Breaking it off now was the only option, right?

I mean, I'd never ever date jobe. Could you imagine?

I would just break up with him once things get too serious, it was a bad habit of mine, when guys get too clingy I break up with them, it just makes me uncomfortable.

though I'd never felt uncomfortable with jobe, I didn't wanna ruin our friendship, something we had worked so hard on.

I didn't wanna ruin it, I really valued his friendship.

"can you believe Trent Alexander Arnold has a girlfriend" I rant as me and Mae get ready together "get over it already" Mae rolls her eyes before laughing.

"she's so beautiful, I wish it were me though" I frown "what's her name again?" Mae asks "Madison Lopez, she's 24, she's a model, she-" "I get it" Mae cuts me off before I can finish talking about the girl.

she was very pretty, I'd been stalking her Instagram since I found out about her and Trent. Truly heartbreaking to see your husband is cheating on you via tiktokroom.

"I wish I was Madison Lopez, twenty four years old" I pray, hoping when I'd opens my eyes I'd be in her body. That didn't happen though, I was still myself.

Still Chloe, the Chloe who loved her friend but was too scared of commitment so she ruined their friendship and now she misses him and regret it.

loved? I did not love jobe, I don't even know why I just thought of that word.

Love and jobe could never, ever, be in the same sentence. It was just an unspoken rule I had made, it had been a rule since back when I still hated him.

"you ready?" Mae asks as she grabs her purse "yeah" I softly smile as we make our way downstairs, we were laughing as we walked toward her car.

I was glad Mae didn't stop our friendship because I didn't like her back, I don't know what I would've done without her this past year, I never wanna lose her.

I was so scared I would, it was truly a nightmare to even think about losing her.

It was a feeling I'd never felt.

"you know" I start as we get into Mae's car "what" she asks "you know, jobe and me, yeah? I told him I don't wanna do it anymore, I think he's mad now" I tell her, a lump in my throat as I do.