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NIGHTS LIKE THIS

'hold my hand until we turn to ashes, love me
til they put me in my casket.'

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NIGHTS LIKE THIS
the kid laroi

"HELLO? WHEN WERE YOU GONNA TELL ME" the door swings open with a frustrated Sophia standing behind it, I look up from my phone.

"you are together?" Jude pops up from behind her "it's recent guys, chill" jobe defends "recent, how?" Sophia asks "recent as in, five minutes ago" jobe clarifies.

"and you immediately told the internet? not even me?" Sophia frowns "we told you guys at the same time as the internet, what's wrong with that?" jobe asks, he was only making it worse.

"we love you guys, but can you see the fame jobe is getting from this" I try to make our reasoning seem better, truth is we just felt awkward telling people in real life.

"alright, you can just post me and you'd get fame" Jude raises his eyebrow "don't be so confident" Sophia turns to Jude "you love when I'm confident" Jude shrugs.

"I always love you" Sophia says, making me and jobe cringe at the words. to make it even worse jude grabbed her face and started kissing her, quickly walking over to their room.

I got up as quick as I could to close the door, I did not want to or need to know what was going on in there right now. I could only imagine, and it made me want to throw up.

Like I already said, they felt like my parents, so right now I just felt as if my parents told me they are gonna try for a child. It's disgusting to think about.

"anyways" jobe grabs my face as I sit back down, now kissing me the same way jude kissed Sophia before. I loved that we could finally be official, and have the world know.

sitting all alone, mouth full of gum,
in the driveway.
my friends aren't far, in the back
of my car, lay their bodies.

Where's my mind?
where's my mind?

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bellyache
Billie eilish

THE MUSIC PLAYS THROUGH THE ROOM as i get ready, I might have the most depressing 'get ready' playlist ever.

the reasoning being I made it when I was sad about one of my exes, it was a necessity to have or else I would just simply never get ready for anything.

I still use it to this day, one reason being the songs on it are just too good, the other being that I get bored while getting ready and I need something to keep my busy.

I now had a boyfriend to keep my busy though, it was annoying how many times he'd start talking while my music was playing.

I just couldn't enjoy getting ready in peace with jobe, if we ever break up this will be my reasoning.

"I can't believe summer is almost over, I will barely see you" jobe pouts, interrupting my music once again "oh my gosh, shut up please." I frustratedly say.