★ 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙰𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚑 ★ - RIDE THE CYCLONE - (DISCONTINUED)

~ I'm heading straight for the floor ~

Mischa's Pov:

"No. No Mischa you- You can't do that. You can't- I.. I gotta go-" Noel blurts out, his voice cracking as he starts to tear up. He pushes me off of his lap, standing up and rushing towards the stairs. I don't even bother to watch him leave, it'll be too upsetting. I bring my knees up to my chest, allowing myself to start sobbing once I think he's gone.

After that I can't stop myself from crying even more, I can't believe I just-

Why did I do that? I let a stupid little crush ruin everything. He must have been so uncomfortable it was selfish of me to just- To kiss him. He didn't kiss back. His face when we pulled away just broke me, he looked so upset. I can't believe I did that. He clearly didn't want that. I should have asked, I should have- I shouldn't have even done it. It was stupid. Fucking stupid. Penny was wrong. He doesn't like me back- He could never like me I'm too aggressive and angry and selfish and-

"Міша? What is wrong?" I hear Talia whisper, her sweet voice slightly hoarse, I must have woken her up with my crying. I don't look at her, instead I bury my face into my knees and cry harder.

"Where is Noel- Uhm- Hey is okay-" She places her hand on my knee, I know she means well, but for fucks sake. I hit her hand away, shuffling further back towards the corner of the couch. I hear her sigh, and a few seconds later I can hear the floorboards of the stairs creaking.

When I look up, I see Talia is gone. She must have gone upstairs to see Noel. I don't know why, but at this moment all I can think is that I need to get out. So I do. I grab my phone, my shoes and the half-empty bottle of Vodka. I run out of there as fast as possible, having to catch myself many times as I keep stumbling.

Eventually I find myself on a random park bench, I don't know when I ended up here but I did. I check the time on my phone; 11:30pm. Nobody will be out at this time, right? I assume so, so I allow myself to start crying softly again. Soon it turns back into sobs, as I rest my head in my hands.

A few minutes later, I sit up to take a swig of Vodka, and when I place the bottle back down I see someone standing a few feet away from me. I recognise her bright orange hair from anywhere, even in the dim lighting.

"Mischa?" Calls out Ocean, as she runs towards me. She looks worried, and surprisingly not mad, as I'd expect.

"Mischa what- Why are you here? Are you insane? It's like 2°C right now.." She pushes the Vodka towards the edge of the bench to make room for herself to sit next to me.

"Why are you here? Jesus you look freezing- Did something happen? Where's Noel? Aren't you supposed to be with him and Talia right now?" I can barely pay attention to what she's saying, instead I just stand up and go to leave, but suddenly it's like the world is spinning around me. Fuck I forgot I'd just drank the rest of the Vodka. I stumble to the floor, I try to catch myself but fail, hitting my cheek on a sharp rock. I subconsciously bring my hand to touch my cheek and when I pull away, I see my fingers stained red.

"Oh- OH MISCHA- GODDAMMIT!" Ocean quickly runs over to me, crouching down next to me as I sit up. She reaches out to touch my face but quickly pulls her hand away as I avoid her gaze.

"Oh god Mischa- You're bleeding! Come on get up." She stands up and offers her hand, which I take knowing I'll probably slip again. I don't like the feeling though. Like electric going through my fingertips, and not in the cool way. I quickly let go once I'm stable, and instead grab onto her tote bag for support.

She starts leading us away from the park, occasionally glancing over at me with a puzzled look on her face. It seems like she knows where she's going, but I don't, so I decide to ask.